034: Empowerment and Apologies – Marisa Russo
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In this episode of The Fearless Females Podcast your host Tegan Mathews interviews Marisa Russo who shares:
How she overcame a childhood of abuse
The power of hearing an apology
Healing through connecting with your feelings
Empowering women through dignity, value and humanity
Tegan’s Take Aways from talking with Marisa Russo:
It takes an immense amount of courage to decide to face your past and it won’t be easy but it will be worth it
By finding the truth and then making sense of it, you can then acknowledge what happened to you, which will banish inner anguish and confusion.
Most women have been conditioned to disconnect from their feelings but feelings are your inner guidance system. They tell you when something is right or wrong. Start connecting today by asking yourself, “How do I feel right now?”
Receiving a genuine apology for what has happened to you can heal even the deepest wounds – and it doesn’t have to come from the perpetrator(s).
If I’m afraid to show up as me, and I’m shut down, you can’t see me which means you can’t connect with me, you can’t love me and you can’t trust me. Having the courage to be vulnerable and open then allows others the opportunity to see, love and trust who we truly are.
About Marisa Russo
Marisa Russo, founder of Forensic Healing and author of Freeing the Unloved Girl is an international award-winning teacher, author, speaker and alternative therapist. She’s been pursuing her mission to heal herself and others for 30 years. The media refer to Marisa as the ‘Sherlock Holmes of Healing’. She has a mind that never stops questioning, digging for answers and solutions. She thrives on solving the most challenging health conditions and life circumstances.
After working with thousands of clients over the years, Marisa knows the mind-set, the healing processes, and techniques that really work to help people heal.
Contact Marisa Russo
www.forensichealing.com
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Show Notes: 034: Empowerment and apologies – Marisa Russo
Marisa Russo’s Fearless Story
My childhood was very dysfunctional, very abusive and I was very disconnected. My father would beat us, me particularly, he didn’t like me because I didn’t really like him and he knew I didn’t like him. He also sexually abused me. So, it was just dysfunctional and I struggled to get through that.
I just remember feeling scared, fearful and just hated myself and hated my life. Then when I became a teenager I rebelled and when I reached my twenties I would seek ways to block the pain through alcohol, drugs, sex and whatever it was. Then I was at such a low point. I was crazily living in Italy and I prayed, because I was religious back then, I prayed to God because I did have a spiritual experience when I was around eight as a child.
So I got on my knees and prayed to God and then I ended up finding the Mormons and that cleaned me out because you didn’t drink, you didn’t smoke, you lived this pure life, there’s no swearing and no pre-marital sex. That really started to get me back to connection.
But the whole journey was really feeling like I was living in a hell. I had this instinct to get out of the hell some way but then I had instinct to want to kill myself and die because I hated the pain so much. So it was just this craziness and somehow I was led.
You know, you get led to one place and one person and you learn what you have to learn or experience what you have to experience and you just keep moving but it’s never smooth, it’s never easy and it’s taken, I must say, a lot of courage and a lot of determination to tell myself that I could feel better, I could have joy and I could be free.
How did you get through that situation?
Fortunately, I never ended up with a partner that was physically abusive but the abuse as a child, I think I just really disconnected but it was almost like, mind over matter. It was like my father, was trying to beat me into submission in a way to say, “I want to control you and you are going to do what I say and you’re going to love me.”
I would just look at him and say to myself, “I’m not going to like you, no matter what you do”. You can’t make me like you. But I guess, I can’t really say that I did anything. It’s just a natural thing to disconnect from childhood and I stayed disconnected until I reached my thirties and forties.
When I was connected emotionally and spiritually it was dramatic. I physically had this reaction on the table of getting a healing and in that moment that I got off the table I could read thoughts, I could feel thoughts, I would physically move to someone’s thought. It was like energy was running fiercely through my body but I could also feel energy and it was quite amazing.
That was an alternative healing I had in the beginning of my forties. I went through this journey of trying to get out of the hell I was living. This emotional hell in my mind turned into physical pain. I couldn’t bear it some times. I wanted to end my life from the physical pain I was in.
It was sort of a manifestation from car accidents and all the emotional pain that had been stuck inside my body and my body couldn’t contain or hold this in for much longer. And so I began to be more and more open and I got to a point where it got so bad that I said to myself, “I don’t care anymore. If you can help me I will try it”. That’s why I moved over to alternate healing. Also, I had left the Mormon church and so I was more free to try other things.
How did you turn that all around?
I couldn’t sit down any longer. I had done about ten years in the British BP head office and I just couldn’t sit down for a full day any more. I just couldn’t do it. So I left and then started to look at different ways of getting an income and after I had my very first kinesiology healing, what convinced me to go down that path was I saw this guy when I was in Queensland.
I was at an Anthony Robbins seminar and my neck was so bad I couldn’t sit in the seminar and I wasn’t concentrating. Someone said, “Go see this guy, he’s weird, different” and so I did. Anyway, he used some sort of kinesiology and I don’t know what he did but all I know is I walked out of there I couldn’t believe how different I felt.
He didn’t actually touch my neck either. I was used to more conventional therapies. And then I said to him, “Who can I see in Melbourne?” He sent me to his instructor who I went to see him and the moment I got on the table this guy said to me, before I had told him anything, “Oh yes, you were sexually abused at the age of six by your father” and then he started to name all these other things and I looked at him. He said, “I’m not psychic, this is a science and I have a course that starts next week.” So I said, “Well, sign me up”.
I just knew intuitively that I needed to go deeper into a more spiritual aspect of myself. I needed to just go deeper and that was the path I had tried to heal myself of the physical pain but what it really did was also heal my soul, my spirit and my emotions that were really very traumatised. My soul was very shattered and that was the beginning of something great.
But it wasn’t easy. It’s not like you get on the table and you feel great. In fact, getting on the table and looking at what’s happened to you is very scary. You have to have a lot of courage and know that you’ve got to do it. There were times when my body physically knew it was facing the fears and I was a mess even before.
That particular healing that I talked about where I actually started to feel energy, I was in the bathroom an hour before that healing, a mess on the floor. My body just knew it was about to face the fears. But I stayed on that table and I just go, “I’ve got to do it!”
What’s happened since you faced those fears?
Well, it’s enlightened me a lot. It’s true, the truth really does set you free. I was naturally like that. I look back on my life and I was a bit of a truth seeker. I remember when I had the visions come back to say that I was sexually abused because I didn’t know. Then I started to put pieces together and I would want to find out truth and see if it was true.
I went back to the house where I was sexually abused and knocked on the door and then I wrote my dad a letter and then we did physically meet up. I had to get this clarity. I had to know if it was really true and if it’s what really happened.
By finding the truth, and then making sense of it, on the other side of it is really acknowledgement that it happened and acknowledgment that it makes sense why you’re a basket case. I used to always plead guilty on the grounds of temporary insanity.
“Why did you do that?” I was insane at the time. Insane things are done to you, act insane. The other side of that is really, I’ve gone deep into looking at my own stuff and I created Forensic Healing. We’re detectives of someone’s life and energy field. That has freed me and now I teach that to others and I read their energy fields.
Now I sit there and I look at the world and why we’re in the mess that we’re in and what works and what doesn’t and then I just see that I have a mission to, in my way, bring back humanity. And I see it through healing women. They’re the ones with great healing abilities, power and they’re the ones who have suffered the most. They’re the ones who are being disrespected and abused.
So if you bring that back and get them r