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9 minutes | Mar 15, 2021
Surrender To God - James 4:7
Surrender to God! James 4:7 instructs us. I personally struggle with this. How about you? Can you relate? My struggle with God is this: I want to have control but God wants me to surrender control to Him. God wants me to choose to trust His plan. And I want to trust God if He reveals to me what His plan is... So, we fight and argue me and God. And ... God always wins! https://AnnaSzabo.com/surrender-to-god-james-4-7 Today, let’s discuss how to surrender to God and let go. Thanks so much for tuning in today. My name is Anna Szabo. I am the founder of OnlineDiscipleshipforWomen.com and my life’s purpose is to help YOU create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. This podcast for Christian women is all about living for God! If you’d like to support my work, donate from the heart. James 4:7 says: “Submit yourselves to God.” It says:c “Subject yourselves to God.” The Bible is clear: we must step out of our own power, strength, and wisdom and step into Christ’s power, strength, and wisdom . How? Through faith-based action. It’s hard to do. What is so hard about it? It requires complete surrender of control. We must lean not on our own understanding in life. We must trust in the Lord with everything. This requires giving up control. And it is scary... it is hard. Surrender feels like falling backwards into the arms of God trusting that He’ll be there to catch you from crushing. This is very difficult. In 2014, I fell on my knees in the middle of my living room late at night, wept, invited God to take control, and gave my life to Christ that night. I asked Jesus to be my personal Lord and Savior; and I surrendered myself to Him completely. God controls my life. God is the source of my blessings, faith, and strength. I am here alive and productive today not because of my own power but because of the power of Christ in me. Submit to the authority of God - James 4:7 tells us. Place yourselves under God's authority! I pondered and questioned everything when it comes to God. Today, I know that God is my creator, that I am God’s child, made in His image, here on earth to do His work, the work He prepared in advance for me to do, and once I do His divine work, I will go to heaven to spend my eternity with Jesus when my time here is up. These truths about myself and my life I received from God’s word. After understanding that Jesus, who was fully man and fully God, came here on earth to surrender His life so that I could have mine, I was overcome with gratitude for my salvation . Once I fully - intellectually, spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and wholeheartedly - understood what happened on the cross, that Jesus was sacrificed for my sake... I wept, fell on my knees, and surrendered my life to Christ. What happened? I accepted God’s grace. Not in theory but in practice. I understood how broken and weak and powerless and hopeless I am on my own and how much I need a Savior - Jesus Christ. I surrendered myself to God. Still, God and argue because I am human. God took me from a lost and confused addict to a woman of God, a disciple of Christ, a helper to Jesus Himself. Surrendering everything I had (my life, my habits, my identity, my desires, my control...) surrendering it all to God allowed me to become a woman of God. Thanks to God’s saving grace, I am who I am, how I am, and where I am. I live a sober ad simple life of peace and joy. God’s grace is sufficient for me in all my circumstances and helps me endure adversity, persevere through challenges, and share my testimony with you to encourage and empower Christian women. Biblical faith requires strength from us. Don’t be strong in your own power, be strong in Christ. Biblical faith guarantees that we will have trials in life and asks that we surrender our own power and live in the power of Christ, through whom all things are possible. To be strong during hard times, you must surrender your own power, admit that you are weak, and ask God for help because in your weakness His strength is displayed and perfected. Here’s what I know from my own experience and experiences of those who received Christ: When you truly understand who Jesus is and you genuinely believe that He died an unimaginably cruel death on the cross for your sins so that you can live a free life, you will fall on your knees in the act of surrender from a place of heartfelt gratitude for your salvation and redemption, and you will weep. Have you surrendered to God?
19 minutes | Mar 8, 2021
Do Not Fear - Isaiah 41:10
“Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 In today’s Biblical devotional for Christian women, we will ponder Isaiah 41:10 and its practical application in our daily lives as women who follow God and love Jesus. In this Biblical devotional, I will share with you a very specific, unique, and breakthrough spiritual practice I perform regularly that causes many people to fear intensely, and in fact, there’s a record of people being unable to benefit from this spiritual practice that goes back to 1929. Frankly, this very profound spiritual practice caused me to fear for my life initially, but now I perform it several times a month, in faith, with peace. I’ll share with you today HOW exactly I continue this uncommon and bold spiritual practice without giving in to my fears. In this Biblical devotional for Christian women today, I’ll help you examine YOUR fears and show you how confronting them courageously allows God to not only work IN you but also THROUGH you spiritually. The examples of fears and the antidote to fear, which I’ll share today, will be relevant to most of the Christian women listening to my Christian podcast The Anna Szabo Show and reading my Christian blog Onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com This original and authentic Biblical devotional for Christian women will encourage and empower you with God’s truth as we apply it practically to real-life experiences of fear and anxiety we all go through as His disciples and daughters. I am Anna Szabo from AnnaSzabo.com/devotionals, and you are listening to The Anna Szabo Show Christian podcast for women who love Jesus. I make content to help you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. My passion in life is to help encourage and empower you by sharing testimonies of God’s amazing glory revealed through my own adverse yet faith-filled life story. Subscribe to my podcast and tell other Christian women about it to help me do God’s work through this women’s ministry. If you’d like to support my ministry, please donate at the link is in the notes below. There are three things you can expect from this Biblical devotional for Christian women today: You’ll hear the scriptures-based devotional I prepared for you There will be an exercise for you to do in order to ponder Isaiah 41:10 as it relates to your own faith journey I’ll offer you a prayer to lift you up to God and ask for His peace, protection, provision, and promotion Let’s get started! PART 1. BIBLICAL DEVOTIONAL FOR CHRISTIAN WOMEN “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 As I’m sharing this Biblical devotional for Christian women with you right now, I have been without any food and any water for 24 hours. This is incomprehensible to many people, and the fasting book from 1929 reveals a story of a man who began fasting but quit when he felt overcome by intense fear for his life. He broke his fast. I practice fasting regularly and have been doing it since early 2018, for three years now. I’m 38 years old, and enjoy the best health of my life after being very sick for decades. My height is 5’10”, my weight is 116 lb, my size is zero, my weekly, monthly, and yearly spendings include zero dollars on medical bills or doctors or hospitals or pills or diets. I’m able to do 10000 steps every day, perform handstands, backbends, jump on the trampoline, run, swim, hike, hula hoop, squat on a BOSU ball, exercise with weights, do all my own chores, travel as I wish, and do all the necessary handy work at home by myself. I’ll leave some links below for you to explore how I live my life free from illnesses, unwanted weight, and useless medical spending. When I started fasting, I practiced water fasting: not eating and only drinking water for up to 5 days. Last year, in 2020, at 37 years old, I discovered dry fasting: no food, no water. I’ve been able to go fir 48 hours without eating and drinking anything, and this has been the most profound spiritual experience with God. Dry fasting became my favorite way of fasting and prayer after I completed my first 24-hour dry fast in 2020. You can find out more about it at AnnaSzabo.com/dry-fasting where I share my diaries, insights, faith testimony, as well as breakthroughs. Dry fasting is my preferred way to fast. I’ve written thousands of words of helpful content to help other Christian women experience the profound spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical benefits of fasting. I’m going to link in the description box below my blog articles about the experience and the journey of fasting in the last 3 years. As I’m sharing this Biblical devotional for Christian women with you right now, not only have I had no food and no water for 24 hours, but I’m getting ready to go to bed after this without eating or drinking. Most people get scared when they hear or think about something like this. Yet, I’ve done it repeatedly because Jesus actually said in the Bible that He expected us to fast after His resurrection. If Jesus expects me to abstain from food and water, He will definitely help me through! “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 Why I trust that fasting is good for me has to do with an enormous amount of science I’ve personally studied and even shared on my blog. But most importantly, when I began fasting and got scared, I continued because of what Jesus said. Mark 2:19-20 reports the expectation for us to fast after His resurrection, which Jesus communicated clearly while He was a man on earth: “Jesus answered, “How can the guests of the bridegroom fast while he is with them? They cannot, so long as they have him with them. But the time will come when the bridegroom will be taken from them, and on that day they will fast.” God’s word expresses God’s will. So, I began fasting three years ago and have been faithfully abstaining from food regularly for up to 5 days. I did it first because I heard God’s voice guiding me in this direction when I was depressed recovering from narcissistic abuse and a very dramatic divorce. I had gained weight, was sick, and I wasn’t able to function. God’s voice is always in alignment with God’s word, which reveals God’s will. So I followed God’s will, and He healed me, restored me, and blessed me! But I was very scared initially... “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 There’s no humans to comfort me when I am scared. I live alone, I’m single and celibate, and I rely fully on God for all the comfort I ever need. But even more importantly, I fast in secret, so no one ever knows when I am fasting. Why? Matthew 6:16-18 explains: “When you fast, do not look gloomy like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be seen by others. But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, that your fasting may not be seen by others but by your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.” Do I feel hungry? Yes, and those hunger pangs are what really scares people when attempting fasting. The hunger pangs and the side effects of hunger scared me initially. However, this is no surprise to Jesus because, being fully human, He Himself practiced fasting and felt hungry. Luke 4:2 explains: “For forty days, being tempted by the devil, Jesus ate nothing and He was hungry.” Jesus expected me to fast, He Himself fasted and felt what I feel when fasting, and He called me to fast in secret to practice my faith and fellowship with God. “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 Has God stayed true to His promise? Yes. I’ve been fasting for years, and not only has God been with me, not only did God strengthen me and help me, but also He upheld me with His righteous right hand and blessed me with many blessings. As I’ve been surrendering my fears to God, He hasn’t just worked IN me (growing me, strengthening me, promoting me); He has also been working THROUGH me helping other Christian women. READ: http://annaszabo.com/fasting http://annaszabo.com/dry-fasting http://annaszabo.com/water-fasting http://annaszabo.com/how-to-have-faith What is it in your life that you fear? Let’s do an exercise to allow you to ponder Isaiah 41:10 in practical ways for yourself. PART 2. ISAIAH 41:10 SPIRITUAL EXERCISE TO GROW YOUR FAITH I want you to think right now about YOUR journey with God and what it is that you fear. It can be one thing or many. Think about what that is that makes you feel overwhelmed with anxiety, preventing you from God’s blessings and faith growth? Once you identify what that is, go to AnnaSzabo.com/isaiah-4110 and let me know in the comments how you plan to courageously surrender your fears to God so that He can be with you, strengthen you, help you, and uphold you with His righteous right hand. Once you share it with me, I want to hold you accountable because your next step is this: “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 For this exercise, I want you to think about a time you surrendered your fears to God and He worked in you and through you. An example of this is how I surrendered my fears, God upheld and strengthen me, He led me to share my experiences with other Christian women who benefited from God’s work in and through me, and now I’m sharin
26 minutes | Mar 1, 2021
Have No Fear of Sudden Disaster - Proverbs 3:25
In today’s Biblical devotional for Christian women, we will ponder Proverbs 3:25-26 (how to not be afraid) and its practical application in our daily lives: “Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin, for the Lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being trapped.” I will share with you an example from my life of how I stay mentally strong in the midst of a global pandemic, nationwide unemployment, and an economic crisis. I will also explain why learning how to not be afraid is critical. We will review the consequences of allowing the fear of a sudden disaster and ruin to overwhelm you. At the end of my message, I’ll offer you a powerful prayer. In this Biblical devotional for Christian women today, I’ll help you examine your own faith journey with God. We will explore why it’s so critical for us as Christian women, the disciples of Jesus, to always remember that it’s the Lord who is at our side and keeps us from being trapped. “Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin, for the Lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being trapped.” Proverbs 3:25-26. Fearing sudden disasters and ruin leaves you anxious, scared, mentally paralyzed, emotionally overwhelmed, physically exhausted, and unable to do God’s work, incapable to fulfill His purpose for your life. That is why learning and practicing how to not be afraid is so critical. The CDC reports: “Communities have faced mental health challenges related to COVID-19–associated morbidity, mortality, and mitigation activities, including the impact of physical distancing and stay-at-home orders. The percentage of respondents who reported having seriously considered suicide in the 30 days before completing the survey (10.7%) was significantly higher among respondents aged 18–24 years (25.5%). This Biblical devotional for Christian women will be relevant and helpful to all of the listeners of my Christian podcast – The Anna Szabo Show – and all the readers of my Christian blog everywhere in the world. We all need to learn now how to not be afraid because being afraid is deadly in the midst of this ongoing global crisis. This original and authentic Biblical devotional will encourage and empower you with God’s truth as we apply it practically to real-life experiences we all are going through all around the globe because we are all facing a continuous sudden disaster and have been affected by it for over a year already. I make content to help you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. My passion in life is to help encourage and empower you by sharing testimonies of God’s amazing glory revealed through my life story. I personally have adjusted my life a lot due to the COVID-19 pandemic. I myself have a history of suicidal depression, and also during the pandemic, the number of women who came to my Christian blog because of their self-harm impulses has increased significantly. I have to practice every day how to not be afraid by leaning on God. I love you. When I was depressed and suicidal during my marriage with a narcissist a few years ago, as God was working in me to keep me alive in the midst of cruel abuse, I thought of you: the Christian woman facing challenges. I thought to myself: if I ever make it out of this abusive marriage alive, I’ll dedicate myself to ministry and help other Christian women. And I’ve been doing this since 2017 when I started my Christian podcast for women and founded Online Discipleship For Women. Subscribe to my podcast and tell other Christian women about it to help me do God’s work through this women’s ministry. If you’d like to support my ministry, you can donate here. There are three things you can expect from this Biblical devotional for Christian women today: You’ll hear the scriptures-based devotional I prepared for you There will be an exercise for you to do in order to ponder Proverbs 3:25-26 as it relates to your own faith journey (how to not be afraid) I’ll offer you a prayer to lift you up to God and ask for His peace, protection, provision, and promotion Let’s get started! PART 1. BIBLICAL DEVOTIONAL FOR CHRISTIAN WOMEN “Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin, for the Lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being trapped.” Proverbs 3:25-26 Many times in my life, I faced disasters. When I was little, my mother molested me and would physically torture me by spreading dry toasted triangular grain over the bare hardwood floor and forcing me to kneel for hours at a time. God protected, saved, and restored me. When I was 25, I emigrated to America to live my happily-ever-after with a real-life Prince Charming. As soon as I arrived in 2008, I was beaten and enslaved. After 8 months of domestic violence, the Dunwoody Police Department conducted a rescue operation and helped me escape on April 9th of 2009. I was homeless in a foreign country without speaking any English. I had no money and no friends. God protected, saved, and restored me. On May 14th of 2016, I married an amazing Christian man, a seminary graduate who worked at a mega-Church in Alpharetta and officiated weddings, doing marriage counseling for couples. After our wedding night, he started disappearing, admitted to cheating on me, spent all my money leaving me without food, threatened me with violence any time I tried to talk to him about our marriage, and he filed for divorce twice in our first year of marriage, costing me $25k. I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD while married to him. He dehumanized, manipulated, gaslighted, stonewalled me, and staged circumstances to make me believe that I was crazy. I became severely depressed and suicidal. After our divorce jury trial, I was left with no energy, and with massive debt. Most of my friends were gone, and I had to start my life over. God protected, saved, and restored me. Today, I live a single and celibate life with God serving Him through my ministry for Christian women to share my powerful testimony and life story to give God all the glory. I was supporting myself by doing marketing contracts when the pandemic hit early in 2020. I felt so devastated… But … “I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.” – Psalms 40:1-2. I was patient in faith and because of my faith, I remained productive and proactive. “Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin, for the Lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being trapped.” Proverbs 3:25-26 Now, let me tell you exactly how to not be afraid. How do I stay faithful when faced with disaster and potential ruin? I pray and remain in God’s word daily, and I share the fruit of this spiritual practice at AnnaSzabo.com/prayers I practice fasting from food and water at least 2-3 times a month for 24 hours to up to 5 days, and I explain it on AnnaSzabo.com/fasting I keep a gratitude journal where I ponder God’s goodness and grace, and I explain my thanksgiving habits on AnnaSzabo.com/thanksgiving I don’t force my emotions to build up and explode; instead, I cry whenever I want to, freely and intensely; and I explain it on AnnaSzabo.com/feelings I maintain healthy daily habits to practice meaningful self-care, and I explained it at AnnaSzabo.com/self-care I read helpful books that empower me, and my journey is shared on AnnaSzabo.com/reading-challenge I exercise every day and also stretch, which is explained in great detail at AnnaSzabo.com/fitness I eat good food that promotes brain health, such as colorful fruits, vegetables, herbs, berries, nuts, and seeds. I elaborate on this topic at AnnaSzabo.com/food I leverage introspection to witness God’s good plan for my life unfolding as I look back and document what happened, literally seeing God’s glory throughout my entire life story. I am careful in choosing whom I talk to and to whom I listen and whom I allow to influence me. I’ve had a friend say the pandemic was a hoax. I haven’t talked to her in months. I had a friend call me always panicked and telling me to practically save her. Of course, I’m not Jesus. I serve Jesus. But everyone must take action to practice their faith. No human can save another human. I can share my testimony with you and ponder God’s word with you, but you are responsible for you. I am not responsible for you. I limited my communication with that friend because I am responsible for né and for my own mental health and God asked me to guard my heart for everything I do flows from it. Last week’s devotional was about that. “Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin, for the Lord will be at your side and will keep your foot from being trapped.” Proverbs 3:25-26 While the Lord is indeed by out side, God gave us free will so that we can choose to do what’s fight based on our faith. The Bible says “faith without works is dead,” in other words having faith but not mobilizing and deploying it every day through actions and decisions is as if having no faith at all. One of the comments I received on my recent YouTube video about faith during trials and tribulations is from a woman who goes by K R. She explained how terrible she feels and how much she needs hope, so I prayed for her as I often do on my YouTube and blog for Christian women. The next thing I know, she transfers her responsibility for her actions and thoughts on me!!! And she goes on to reveal to me her faith in a Santa Clause God who is supposed to grant her wishes through me. Here’s a part of that conversation. “Anna, thank you for your words. I am so weak… I can barely function. My brain is foggy, and I am amazed at your clarity and energy level… 20 years with an evil narcissistic husband and a lifetime with a narcissistic mother – and I can’t make good decisions. Why aren’t your prayers answered and I am healed of brain fog, despair, depression, and suicidal ideation? I have believed for it. What am I doing wrong? How
20 minutes | Feb 21, 2021
Guard Your Heart - Proverbs 4:23
“Guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” - Proverbs 4:23. In this Biblical devotional for Christian women today, I’ll help you examine your journey and witness how not guarding your heart leaves you overwhelmed, exhausted, paralyzed by anxiety, unable or unwilling to do God’s work, and incapable to fulfill His purpose for your life. We will ponder Proverbs 4:23 and its practical application in our daily lives. I will share with you how I personally guard my heart and how I realized the deadly implications of leaving my heart unguarded, defenseless, unprotected, and exposed. The deadly consequences were a paralyzing anxiety and suicidal depression. The examples of an unguarded heart, which I’ll share today, will be relevant to most of the Christian women listening to my Christian podcast The Anna Szabo Show and reading my Christian blog Onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com This original and authentic Biblical devotional for Christian women will encourage and empower you with God’s truth as we apply it practically to real-life experiences we all go through as His disciples and daughters. I am Anna Szabo from AnnaSzabo.com, and you are listening to The Anna Szabo Show Christian podcast for women who love Jesus. I make content to help you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. My passion in life is to help encourage and empower you by sharing testimonies of God’s amazing glory revealed through my life story. Subscribe to my podcast and tell other Christian women about it to help me do God’s work through this women’s ministry. If you’d like to support my ministry, you can donate at onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com, the link is in the notes below. There are three things you can expect from this Biblical devotional for Christian women today: You’ll hear the scriptures-based devotional I prepared for you There will be an exercise for you to do in order to ponder Proverbs 4:23 as it relates to your own faith journey I’ll pray for you to lift you up to God and ask for His peace, protection, provision, and promotion in your life Let’s get started! PART 1. BIBLICAL DEVOTIONAL FOR CHRISTIAN WOMEN “Guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” - Proverbs 4:23 I was raised by a very abusive mother. This year, in 2021, I have been sharing my story as a scapegoat daughter of a narcissistic mother on my main YouTube channel every day. Every day, I post a new helpful video on YouTube to share what happened to me and how the narcissistic trauma affected me. I always mention that the best way to deal with abuse is to block the abuser. I blocked my abusive mother on social media everywhere even when I still had social media, before I permanently deleted my Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, and Twitter in 2020. I also blocked my abusive, hostile, cruel mother on email and phone. But while those were effective measures, in February on 2021, as I went to my email trash can to clean it, I was stunned to see that, despite all the blocking filters I applied, almost 100 hateful, abusive, death-focused emails from my toxic mother made their way to my email. As I saw her messages terrorizing me, denouncing me, harassing me, and condemning me, I immediately spiraled down into a deep and very dark place. It’s important to disclose here something significant. My mother tried to kill me many times, and she repeatedly told me: I hate you and I just want you dead. This was the main theme of her 25-year long relationship with me while I lived with her on Russia. I’m 38 now, and I’ve lived in America for almost 13 years. I haven’t seen my mother for this long but her hatred and cruelty are deadly. “Guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” - Proverbs 4:23 I became unable to work out or get out of bed many times before due to her hateful, cruel, evil, death-wishing attacks. This time, I knew that even technology is imperfect, and I needed to build guardrails around my heart in addition to blocking my toxic narcissistic mother with technology. Not guarding my heart, leaving it exposed to my mother’s negativity, I attempted to kill myself twice. When I protect my heart by guarding myself against hateful people, evil cookers, gossipers, manipulators, and abusers, I am able to be very productive, live a life of joy and peace, stay healthy, and focus on my future. When I don’t guard my heart, abusers suck the life out of me, leaving me lifeless and depressed. It happened to me many times: my abusive mother sucked the life out of my heart and my three abusive husbands did the same. Today, I live a peaceful and productive life with God. I am single and celibate, healing from all the trauma inflicted on me by cruel abusers. I did not guard myself from them very well. “Guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” - Proverbs 4:23 How do I guard my heart? I pray and stay in God’s word daily I have an attitude of gratitude I have a gratitude journal where I ponder God’s goodness and grace I don’t force my emotions to build up and explode; instead, I cry whenever I want to, freely and intensely. I use technology to block abusers. I don’t participate in gossip. I don’t go places where my heart will be crushed: strip clubs, casinos, night clubs, violent shows, cruel movie demonstrations, and other similar places where I used to go for fun. I don’t do the kinds of things that would suck the life out of my heart: I’m not on social media, I have no TV or cable at home, I am mot on any dating apps, and instead of l that, I spend quality tome with God doing productive work He called me to do, as well as enjoying my fellowship with God and worshiping Him through poetry, art, my Christian blog, my podcast for Christian women, my Biblical devotionals, prayers, meditations, and videos. I leverage introspection to witness God’s good plan for my life unfolding as I look back and document what happened, literally seeing God’s glory throughout my entire life story. I am careful choosing friends and whom I invite into my home and into my circle. I practice discernment in order to guard my heart, for everything I do flows from it (Proverbs 4:23). Now I would like to show you some practical examples of how different people guard their hearts in their everyday lives. “Guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” - Proverbs 4:23 Kary wrote: “I am the daughter of a narcissistic mother. She is jealous of my life. She is angry when I am happy. She has told lies about me, tried to kill me, tried to have me arrested, tried to have my children taken away, fakes illnesses and injuries, tells me she is depressed all the time for the last 30 years - all this as a way to manipulate me. Now she is getting older and has poor health. I can’t take care of her because I would kill myself. She sends me into panic attacks and deep depression.” As you can see, staying as far physically as possible from toxicity and manipulation is an effective way to guard your heart so that you can continue living a life, for which God Himself created you. K.P. wrote: “I had to run away from my mother at age 15. Narcissists can be dangerous and toxic to our souls.” As you can see, running away from abuse and danger is an effective way to guard your heart so that you can continue living a life, for which God Himself created you. And now I want to show you how everything you do, which flows from your heart, can come to an end if you don’t guard your heart in Christ. K R writes: “I am the only parent to a teenager, and I am alone. I am struggling with getting out of bed and functioning. I am trying to hide it from my child. I am overwhelmed. I’m so weary. I watched your TED talk. I use my normal false cheer with my child who is angry with God and has no father, he is angry at what his father has done and continues to do. He tried to commit suicide because of what his father did to us. I have to have my fake positive Christian talk and face.” What is it in your life that is hurting your heart and from which you must guard your heart in order to continue living a productive life of purpose as God ordained for you? Let’s do an exercise to allow you to ponder Proverbs 4:23 in practical ways. PART 2. PROVERBS 4:23 SPIRITUAL EXERCISE TO GROW YOUR FAITH I want you to think right now about YOUR journey with God and what things or events or people or hobbies or habits suck the life out of you. What is it that makes you feel overwhelmed, depressed, and hopeless, derailing you from God’s purpose and His straight path for your life? Once you identify what that is, go to AnnaSzabo.com/proverbs-423 and let me know in the comments how you plan to courageously guard your heart. Once you share it with me, I want to hold you accountable because your next step is this: “Guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” - Proverbs 4:23 Tell me what you are working to protect your heart from, and I’ll be your accountability partner and your personal prayer warrior. Now, I want to pray for you. Before I do, if you’d like to support my ministry, there’s a link in the description where you can make a donation and shop my Christian apparel collection with encouraging and empowering Biblical affirmations to help you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. Let’s pray together! PART 3: “GUARD YOUR HEART” BIBLICAL PRAYER Father God, I thank you for your presence in my heart and your reign over my life. I rely on your holy word. I seek your wisdom. I pay attention to hear your voice. I follow your divine guidance to live a life of purpose, peace, and prosperity. “Guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” - Proverbs 4:23 says. God, I pray that you show me what I need to guard my heart from and also give me wisdom to see how to guard my heart effectively and courageously. Father in Heaven, I know that when I establish boundaries in order to guard my heart, many people in my current circle
15 minutes | Feb 15, 2021
Keep Your Foot from Evil - Proverbs 4:27
In today’s Biblical devotional for Christian women, we will ponder Proverbs 4:27 and its practical application in our daily lives. I will share with you how I personally battle two TWO evils in my own life (lust and gluttony), and I’ll help you examine your life and witness how God is leading your path straight. https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/proverbs-4-27 The examples I’ll be sharing are for adults only. Children should not be listening to this content. The examples of evil from my own personal life, which I’ll share today, will be relevant to most of the Christian women listening to my Christian podcast The Anna Szabo Show and reading my Christian blog Onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com I am Anna Szabo, and right now you’re listening to The Anna Szabo Show Christian podcast for women who love Jesus. I make content to help you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. My passion in life is to help encourage and empower you by sharing my testimony of God’s amazing glory in my own life story. Subscribe to my podcast and tell other Christian women about it to help me do God’s work through this women’s ministry. If you’d like to support my ministry, you can donate at onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com, the link is in the notes below. There are three things you can expect: You’ll hear the Biblical devotional I prepared for you There will be an exercise for you to do in order to ponder Proverbs 4:27 as it relates to your own faith journey I’ll pray for you to lift you up to God and ask for His peace, protection, provision, and promotion in your life PART 1. BIBLICAL DEVOTIONAL FOR CHRISTIAN WOMEN This is the most difficult devotional I have ever set out to create. I’m going to share with you my deepest struggles, which I’d prefer to forever keep to myself of course, but God called me to share my testimony and tell you my story to display His glory. God’s glory is not the only thing you’ll see displayed throughout this Biblical devotional for Christian women. You’ll witness what’s called “the human condition,” which is my endless struggle with the flesh. The flesh and the spirit always at odds within us, the Christian women who desire to obey and honor God. I desire to obey and honor God. My Heavenly Father God specified two evils, and told me personally to flee from these two evils. What are they? Proverbs 23:2 says: “put a knife to your throat if you are given to gluttony.” Why is gluttony so evil? Proverbs 23:21 explains this: “the glutton will come to poverty, and the drowsiness of overindulgence will clothe them with rags.” Not only is it expensive to indulge in gluttony but also overindulgence in food leads to drowsiness, which is the opposite of what God’s word directs us to be - alert, aware, awake, and alive fully as His daughters and disciples of Jesus Christ. We can’t serve God being drowsy, which is a feeling of being sleepy and lethargic. Whenever I indulge in gluttony, I feel not only sleepy and lethargic but also powerless as the desire for food overwhelms me. After I indulge in gluttony, I feel off my path, exactly the opposite of what Proverbs 4:27 teaches: “Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.” Whenever I surrender to this first evil, the sin of gluttony, I stray away from God. 1 John 2:16 explains this in great detail: “For all that is in the world - the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes - are not from the Father but are from the world.” So what it means is that whenever I give into the desires of the flesh, such as the sin of gluttony, indulging in food, it is not from God, so it is evil. The first evil I battle is gluttony. Only a few people know this: my best friend Maria, my neighbors Gabby and Mary, and the readers on my Christian blog posts about fasting and the plant-based diet. I will link those resources below in the description box if you want to read. There, I shared my food diaries, and they reveal my struggles with gluttony, the first evil that’s distracting me from God. The second evil in my life is lust. “Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.” - Proverbs 4:27 says. How does lust lead me to the left and toward evil when I’ve been celibate for many many years? Matthew 5:28 establishes this very clearly: “a woman who looks at a man with lustful intent has already committed adultery with him in her heart.” If you know my addiction story, you know that I struggled with promiscuity and slept around for years. I am divorced three times, and I live a simple, single, celibate life with Jesus Christ who has my heart. But this celibacy is fragile, though I’ve stayed faithful to God for many years, I know how fragile I am, and how strong the enemy is, so I battle this evil courageously every time lust is lurking around looking to devour me and lead me astray from Jesus. A few days ago, I went to the UPS, and there was a new employee there: tall, handsome, beautiful curly hair, very gorgeous man. As soon as I began noticing these thing I just shared with you, I became alarmed knowing where they lead. They never ever lead toward purity and faithfulness to God, and you know it. I was doing a return of an ab roller. He asked me about my abs, told me he is a fitness instructor, and with my return label, he gave me his cell phone number. Once I got out and to my car, I saw the paper, which said: “Joseph” and his cell number. In that moment, I knew exactly where this would lead, so I immediately threw away this piece of paper and prayed to God for calmness and purity of my thoughts. I’m 38, and I first gave myself away at 16. While I’ve been single and celibate for years, I know those fire works that I saw coming from Joseph. They are beautiful but very dangerous, and I stay away from them at all times. “Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.” - Proverbs 4:27 and I keep my foot away from this evil. As far as the evil of gluttony, as I’m sharing this devotional with you, I have missed my timeframe for releasing it as I promised you’ll have it by 7:15 pm on Sunday. It’s 11 pm, I feel exactly as the Bible warns: lethargic. Why? Because I gave in and indulged in gluttony today so now I feel physically sick and mentally foggy. This is the human condition. It’s why I need Jesus every day. The battle between the flesh and the Spirit is ongoing, and that is exactly why we are warned so prominently “Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.” - Proverbs 4:27. What is the evil you are fighting in your life? Let’s do an exercise so that you can ponder Proverbs 4:27 in practical ways. PART 2. PROVERBS 4:27 SPIRITUAL EXERCISE TO GROW YOUR FAITH I want you to think right now about YOUR journey with God and what distractions you battle. What is it that constantly tries to take over your mind in order to lead you astray from God’s purpose and His straight path for your life? Once you identify what that evil is, go to AnnaSzabo.com/proverbs-427 and let me know in the comments what evil things you courageously confront within yourself abs how God helps you, as well as your challenges in this battle. Once you share it with me, I want to hold you accountable because your next step in this exercise is the following: “Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.” - Proverbs 4:27. Tell me what you are working hard NOT TO DO, and I’ll be your accountability partner and your personal prayer warrior. Now, let me pray for you. Before I do, if you’d like to support my ministry, there’s a link in the description where you can make a donation and shop my Christian apparel collection with encouraging and empowering Biblical affirmations to help you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. Let me pray for you. Actually, why don’t your pray this with me? PART 3: “KEEP YOUR FOOT AWAY FROM EVIL” BIBLICAL PRAYER Father God, you are good, and I trust your 3573 promises in the Bible. One of your promises, God is 1 Corinthians 10:13 “The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.” God, I believe that whenever I’m battling temptations, whenever there’s a fight within me between the flesh and the Spirit, you provide an escape, God. Let me see it every time. Let me choose to exercise my free will and take an opportunity you provide to escape my intense and overwhelming temptations. I am yours, God. I want to obey your instructions and follow your narrow path, which is straight. “Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.” - Proverbs 4:27 instructs me. Father God, any time I’m led to the left or to the right by worldly temptations, let me choose to follow you, allow me to keep my feet away from evil, not in my own power but through Christ in me. I pray this in His name, in the name of Jesus, my Lord and Savior. Amen. 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11 minutes | Feb 8, 2021
Let Your Eyes Look Straight Ahead - Proverbs 4:25
“Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you.” In today’s Biblical devotional for Christian women, we will ponder Proverbs 4:25 and its practical application in our daily lives: https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/let-your-eyes-look-straight-ahead-proverbs-4-25 There are three things you can expect: You’ll hear the Biblical devotional I prepared for you There will be an exercise for you to do in order to ponder Proverbs 4:25 as it relates to your current situation I’ll pray for you to lift you up to God and ask for His peace, protection, provision, and promotion in your life PART 1. BIBLICAL DEVOTIONAL FOR CHRISTIAN WOMEN Have you ever felt distracted from your purpose, knowing exactly what you need to do, walking the narrow path, following God, and staying focused? I have. In fact, I’ll share my personal stories with you. Two stories. The first story happened twice. I was 22 lb overweight and felt that I was on the wrong health path. God called me to pursue holistic weight loss to honor Him with my body. And I knew exactly what to do, but doing it was difficult because the numbers on my scale showed no result. For a long time, my weight wouldn’t come off but despite my distractions with numbers, I kept following God’s calling and guidance on a very narrow path: 10000 steps a day, 100 squats a day, regular water fasting, and eating a plant-based diet. “Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you.” Proverbs 4:25 helped me push through and stay focused on one step at a time, one step only, step by step. I fixed my gaze directly before me. At the end of 60 days, all my weight melted away, and I was the healthiest I had been. You might wonder: why would you need to go through this twice? The reason why is that I was rear-ended in a car accident and had to recover. After my recovery, I went on to lose 22 lb again by doing exactly what Proverbs 4:25 teaches us to do. Here’s my second personal story. Today is 2/7/2021. On January 1st this year, I started publishing a video a day on my main YouTube channel, which I’ll link below for you. I have been working so hard, but my analytics show that right now my videos get only between 14 and 200 views. It looks like I’m getting nowhere. The analytics make it appear as if I am not going far. But God gave me a vision for my ministry Online Discipleship for Women. He asked me to take my message to YouTube. And He advised me to do this: “Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you.” Proverbs 4:25. I am publishing a video every single day on my main YouTube channel for Christian women, following God’s sacred word. In addition to that, today, I started a new YouTube channel called The Anna Szabo Show where I now publish my weekly podcast. I have only 1314 subscribers on my main channel and zero subscribers on my podcast channel as of today. But I won’t let myself get distracted! “Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you.” Proverbs 4:25 That’s what I’m doing. Because God called me to a very specific mission. He created me for this purpose. And I won’t get destructed. I am staying focused, fixing my gaze directly before me, taking productive action every single day. And I want to share with you my poem about purpose, which I hope will help you focus and take action without letting anyone or anything distract you. This is poem number 127 at AnnaSzabo.com/poems “Purpose” Purpose is what you know you are supposed to do. It’s what you’re confident you were created for. It’s why you think God to Himself you drew. It helps transform your life into a blessing from a chore. Pursuing purpose is fulfilling and exciting. Your purpose fuels your daily life with joy. A purpose-driven future is inviting Because it can your heart and mind deploy. Pursuing purpose is a very special blessing. To know your purpose is to live a life of meaning. Your purpose knowing, you yourself can be expressing In spite of others’ hateful interfering. 9/26/2020 © Anna Szabo, JD, MBA PART 2. PROVERBS 4:25 SPIRITUAL EXERCISE TO GROW IN FAITH I want you to think right now about YOUR purpose. What is it that God put in your heart as fire but something always gets in a way of you taking productive steps on your path anointed with God’s purpose? Once you identify what that fire in your heart is, go to AnnaSzabo.com/proverbs-425 and let me know in the comments what your purpose is. Once you share it with me, I want to hold you accountable because your next step in this exercise is the following: “Let your eyes look straight ahead; fix your gaze directly before you.” Proverbs 4:25 Tell me what your purpose is and let me cheer you on as you fix your gaze directly before you and do what God anointed you to do. Now, let me pray for you. Before I do, if you’d like to support my ministry, there’s a link in the description where you can make a donation and shop my Christian apparel collection with encouraging and empowering Biblical affirmations to help you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. Let me pray for you. PART 3: “LET YOUR EYES LOOK STRAIGHT AHEAD” BIBLICAL PRAYER Father God, you are good, kind, wise, and loving. I pray for the woman listening to this Biblical devotional right now to clearly hear your voice, to realize her divine purpose, to take productive action, letting her eyes look straight ahead, fixing her gaze directly before her, as Proverbs 4:25 instructs her to do. God, let this message wake her up to her spiritual blessings so that she realizes how special she is that you called her to do very special things. I pray for your supernatural peace, protection, provision, and promotion in her life as she’s following you through the narrow path, focused on you wholeheartedly. I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. Amen. Donate to support my Christian ministry: http://bit.ly/EncourageAndEmpowerWomen Subscribe to my Christian podcast on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3Ov7nEByxO4i0KwtLTY6tw?sub_confirmation=1 Subscribe to my main channel for Christian women: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8HrGuEZ26l5Oq7fjWY5x5Q?sub_confirmation=1 Shop my Christian apparel on Amazon: https://amzn.to/2Jwh8hL Shop my Christian apparel on TeeSpiring: https://annaszaboart.myteespring.co Visit my Christian art store on Etsy: https://www.etsy.com/shop/AnnaSzaboArt Buy me a coffee: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/annaszabo
9 minutes | Jan 31, 2021
Pray without Ceasing - 1 Thessalonians 5:17
In this Biblical devotional for Christian women, let's ponder 1 Thessalonians 5:17 - how to pray without ceasing. If you've ever asked yourself: "What does pray without ceasing mean?" this Christian podcast is for you. I'll share with you how and why I myself pray unceasingly AnnaSzabo.com/pray-without-ceasing-1-thessalonians-5-17 1 Thessalonians 5:17 New International Version says: pray continually. Why should we pray continually? I can speak for myself and share my testimony in hopes that it will help you reflect on your life and your relationship with God and your own faith. I’ll explain from my own experience how to pray without ceasing. I am pursuing intimacy with God. I want to know Jesus, not only be known by Him. I talk to God. I hear God’s voice. And all this happens through prayer. I pray unceasingly. Because life is continuous and ongoing, my questions about life are also ongoing. That’s why I never stop praying. I want God to know that I am intentionally reaching out for Him, every single say, in every situation. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 New Living Translation says: never stop praying. I believe that the Bible is God-breathed word. I believe that 100% of the Bible is accurate and was created through the Holy Spirit in believers who manifested it physically, exactly how this Biblical devotional for Christian women is manifesting physically right now through the power of the Holy Spirit in me. To continue being guided by God’s spirit, I cherish and leverage my direct communication line with him, which is prayer. That’s why I never stop praying. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 Amplified Bible version says: be unceasing and persistent in prayer. In everyday life, most Christian women have a habit of calling a mom or a sister or an aunt or a boyfriend or a husband or a grandma when things happen, when they have questions about something, or when they want to share their heart. I don’t have a mother. I don’t have a father. I have no sisters, aunts, uncles, or grandma. I’ve been single and celibate for years, so I don’t have boyfriends, husbands, or any mortal human to whom I’m reaching out on a regular basis to share my heart or to seek wisdom. I reach out to God, and that’s why in my prayer, I’m unceasing and persistent. I pray unceasingly. Next, I’ll explain from my own experience how to pray without ceasing. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 Holman Christian Standard Bible version says: pray constantly. If I’m deciding how to best structure my day, I pray. When I wake up in the morning, I smile and pray for the day ahead. As I lie down to go to sleep, I pray and thank Jesus for a productive day and for keeping me safe. I pray constantly. In my work, I reach out for God regarding the topics I need to bring to your attention through my ministry for Christian women via my Christian podcast The Anna Szabo Show or my Christian YouTube channel or my Christian blog. I pray without ceasing: for guidance and wisdom. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 Good News Translation version says: pray at all times. When I was going through a divorce years ago with my narcissistic husband who abused me, I prayed at that time, continually. And God blessed me with beauty for my ashes and my heartbreak. I pray without ceasing. When I was looking for a new home to reestablish my life, I prayed at that time, continually. God blessed me with a beautiful home where I still live today, enjoy my life here very much, and heal. I pray without ceasing. When I was looking for a new marketing job, I prayed at that time, continually. Gods gave me a new job, but it wasn’t meaningful. While working that job, I prayed at that time, continually, about a meaningful career, and God blessed me with this ministry – Online Discipleship for Women. I pray without ceasing. When I was trying to lose 22 lb to get healthy and improve my health and quality of life, I prayed at that time, continually, and God led me to discover water fasting and dry fasting. I’ve lived a fasting lifestyle for years now, being the healthiest I’ve ever been in my life, maintaining my perfect weight, staying active, and having lots of energy. I pray without ceasing. I pray at ALL times. I pray unceasingly. 1 Thessalonians 5:17 International Standard Version says: continually be prayerful. Being playful means that praying to God is so much a part of your lifestyle and mental habits that praying to God is not only something you do, it’s also who you are. I am prayerful. It’s who I am. I’ve shared dozens of my personal prayers on my Christian blog and on my YouTube channel. Also, people leave me their personal prayer requests in the comments both in my blog and on my YouTube videos. I always respond with a personalized genuine prayer from the bottom of my heart. I pray without ceasing. If you’d like me to pray for you, leave a comment. Before I pray for you, I want to invite you to support my ministry by making a donation. Click here to donate now. Also, I created a beautiful collection of Biblical apparel for Christian women to encourage and empower you. Shop here now. Donate to support my Christian ministry: http://bit.ly/EncourageAndEmpowerWomen Enjoy my other Biblical devotionals for Christian women: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPKT7YZbpKzZ-SjtKfqM7LHYs8lP8eYHU Subscribe on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8HrGuEZ26l5Oq7fjWY5x5Q?sub_confirmation=1 Watch my Christian podcast for women The Anna Szabo Show: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G0ZKSvAWdZw&list=PLPKT7YZbpKzb7f5NVuDxZtUqCiK4KQnIQ Get my free ebook about Christian identity: http://bit.ly/52DEVOTIONALS Buy my merch on TeeSpring: https://annaszaboart.myteespring.co Shop my Christian apparel on Amazon: https://amzn.to/2Jwh8hL Visit my Christian art store on Etsy: https://www.etsy.com/shop/AnnaSzaboArt Buy me a coffee: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/annaszabo Let me pray for you. Father God, I thank you for leading the woman listening to this Biblical devotional right now to my Christian podcast, The Anna Szabo Show. God, I believe that prayer is the most essential communication tool you gave us to talk to you and to hear from you. God, I ask that you lead and guide the woman, who’s listening to my Biblical devotional right now, into a more intimate and meaningful relationship with you when she can talk to you and hear from you by praying continually at all times. In the name of Jesus I ask this. Amen.
13 minutes | Jan 24, 2021
Honor Your Father and Mother - Exodus 20:12
“Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land that the Lord your God is giving you.” – Exodus 20:12 In this devotional today, we will ponder this scripture, and at the end of my message, I will pray for you to lift you up to God and ask for His peace, protection, provision, and promotion in your life. https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/honor-your-father-and-mother-exodus-20-12 I’ve pondered Exodus 20:12 for many years because I have always wanted to honor my mother. As far as my father, I did not know him but I do know that he spent most of his life in prison. If you want to know about my life story, you can read my article called “Getting to know Anna Szabo.” If you read “Getting to know Anna Szabo,” you will learn that my narcissistic mother abused me, tortured me violently, bullied me cruelly, molested me at a very young age, taught me to prostitute my body, encouraged me to commit suicide, and told me repeatedly “I hate you and I just want you dead!” I wanted to honor God by honoring my mother but I wasn’t sure how. My mother told me that the best thing I could do for her was to die. I attempted suicide twice at 11 and 12. But God saved me and revealed to me that He had a purpose for my life. I knew that suicide was not God’s will for my life, I knew that I had to continue living faithfully. I stayed in touch with my toxic mother after emigrating from Russia to America in 2008. However, by doing so, I was only exposing myself to more abuse and seeing clearly that my mother’s goal, indeed, remains until this day to bully me into suicide, which she told me will forever be her mission. When I went no contact with her, people in my Christian community would tell me I must let it go and try harder to make my mother happy. Today’s Biblical devotional is for Christian women who, like me, have struggled on the one hand with guilt when separating from their abusive mothers and on the other hand longing for peace, safety, and boundaries to protect themselves as they should. Exodus 20:12 makes it clear that your ultimate goal as a Christian woman is this: “that your days may be long in the land that the Lord your God is giving you.” Every time I was in contact with my toxic narcissistic mother, she’d bully me into suicidal ideation. It’s January 23rd of 2021, Saturday. My birthday was on Monday January 18th. I turned 38 years old. I haven’t seen my toxic violent cruel monstrous mother since 2008. This year is the first time I am able to share what I’ve learned on my journey with God who has grown my faith and revealed His purpose for my life to me, which is this: “that your days may be long in the land that the Lord your God is giving you.” That is God’s plan for my life and for your life. The most important thing is for me to continue living life, and my mother attempted to compromise this many times by physically attacking me and of course attacking me emotionally and mentally. After years of pondering Exodus 20:12, I have realized that maintaining contact with my narcissistic mother makes living a long life in the land my God has given me impossible. I had to choose to follow God. I had to choose life over darkness and death, which my mother inflicted on me. This year, in the past 22 days, I have released 15 videos on my YouTube channel about a specific topic dedicated to narcissistic mothers and their daughters. I’ve shared my own story of narcissistic abuse and so much more helpful information for Christian women who endured abuse from their toxic mothers. Here’s what one woman wrote in her comments on my recent YouTube video: “Thank you so much. I appreciate your message. I’m glad you’re doing these videos. I’m glad you got away from your torment. So many people don’t. I’m also glad God saved you. Be blessed!” This woman who commented on my video called called “What Does The Bible Say About a Narcissistic Mothers?” is right. Talking about this topic is unusual and very difficult. But God called me to ministry, and He asked me to share with you the same comfort I myself received from Him. It is why I founded Online Discipleship for Women in 2017, and now my ministry has helped Christian women across 208 countries. Glory to God! This is what it means to have days that are long in the land that the Lord my God is giving me. It’s only possible because I am alive. I am still alive only because because I established boundaries to protect myself from the death and darkness imposed on me by my toxic and conscience-lacking narcissistic mother. Only because of my no contact with her, am I able to honor God and continue living and serving His kingdom. By honoring God and doing His will, I am honoring my mother, though she’d prefer me dead. If you are interested in the topic of honoring your mother, there’s a reason for it. If you’ve struggled with guilt when setting boundaries with your mother, this message is for you: God has a purpose for your life, He wants you to live a long and healthy life He has given you. Boundaries help you protect yourself so that you can live a long and healthy life with God. One thing God revealed to me that helped with all my other breakthroughs and boundaries was this: I came here not from my mother but through her. I came here from God. And so did you. My mother always said to me that she gave me life and she can take it away any time. I believed her and lived in terror. It’s not true. She did not give me life. God did. The purpose of my life is to follow God’s will for me, which is revealed in His word, which is why I’m doing these Biblical devotionals for Christian women every Saturday here on my Christian podcast for women The Anna Szabo Show to ponder the word of God together with you so that we can each live a long and productive life with God. By doing so, we honor our mothers, from whose abuse, darkness, and toxicity the Bible teaches us to stay away. And my video called “What Does The Bible Say About a Narcissistic Mother?” reveals this truth in detail. Your life matters. Your health matters. Your focus matters. God brought you here for a reason. Protect yourself from abuse and stay faithful, productive, and alive. Before I pray for you, I want to invite you to support my ministry by making a donation: donate here. Also, I created a beautiful collection of Biblical apparel for Christian women to encourage and empower you. Shop my Christian apparel now. Let me pray for you. Father God, I thank you for for leading the woman listening right now to my Christian podcast and this special, very unique and authentic Biblical devotional for women. Heavenly Father, in life, we will have troubles, and you already promised thus to us in James 1, but you also said that it is up to us to persevere with faith and fortitude and grow in hope while leaning on the Lord, not on our own understanding. God, in the natural, it seems as if we were supposed to make our mothers happy but it’s not at all what you call us to do as your daughters who must live long and productive lives honoring you, which honors our mothers, even if they would actually prefer us dead. Father, I thank you for giving the life to the Christian woman listening to The Anna Szabo Show right now. And I thank you for my life. I pray for your peace, protection, provision, and promotion, God, in Jesus’ name. Amen. Donate to support my Christian ministry: http://bit.ly/EncourageAndEmpowerWomen Enjoy my other Biblical devotionals for Christian women: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPKT7YZbpKzZ-SjtKfqM7LHYs8lP8eYHU Subscribe to my YouTube channel for Christian women: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8HrGuEZ26l5Oq7fjWY5x5Q?sub_confirmation=1 Watch my Christian podcast for women The Anna Szabo Show: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G0ZKSvAWdZw&list=PLPKT7YZbpKzb7f5NVuDxZtUqCiK4KQnIQ Get my free ebook about Christian identity: http://bit.ly/52DEVOTIONALS Buy my merch on TeeSpring: https://annaszaboart.myteespring.co Shop my Christian apparel on Amazon: https://amzn.to/2Jwh8hL Visit my Christian art store on Etsy: https://www.etsy.com/shop/AnnaSzaboArt Buy me a coffee: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/annaszabo
20 minutes | Jan 17, 2021
Trust in the Lord - Proverbs 3:5
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”- Proverbs 3:5 Learn how to trust in the Lord with all your heart, as Proverbs 3:5 instructs Christian women. Discover how to lean on Him, not your own understanding. Hear my testimony: AnnaSzabo.com/trust-in-the-lord-proverbs-3-5 In this Biblical devotional for Christian women today, we will ponder this scripture, and at the end of my message, I will pray for you to lift you up to God and ask for His peace, protection, provision, and promotion in your life. My name is Anna Szabo, and you are listening to The Anna Szabo Show, a podcast for Christian women to help you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. I am the founder of OnlineDiscipleshipForWomen.com where you can find more than 1,000,000 words of helpful content I created to encourage and empower you. We live through the era of political violence, health crisis due to a global pandemic, the economic crisis caused by the pandemic, long-lasting unemployment caused by the economic crisis, and the list of our troubles goes on and on. There’s so much confusion in our minds and so much doubt in our hearts... I know. This season is difficult for me personally, too. In the natural, it looks like God perhaps abandoned his people completely. Maybe God betrayed us? Or does He not even care? Is God good? I wrote a detailed blog post about it on my ministry website and also did a podcast about it: “Is God Good?" Trusting God is hard. But that’s why we needed faith, which is hope in the things unseen. To help myself trust in the Lord with all my heart, I typically look back at my experience with God, I examine if God stayed true to His promises, and I see through introspection that God is faithful. "How To Trust God" video playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPKT7YZbpKzaqnOMo7kTKG1EjnjZCN_0G I also know that when we are facing hardships, we can’t see the big picture. But I assure you: God is not on vacation right now, He is present in your life right now, He cares about you right now, and His plan for you is good. Mentioned in this Biblical devotional for Christian women is my domestic violence story: https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/domestic-violence as well as my narcissistic abuse marriage https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/narcissistic-relationship-abuse May my Christian video encourage and empower you! Donate to support my Christian ministry: http://bit.ly/EncourageAndEmpowerWomen Subscribe to my Christian YouTube videos: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8HrGuEZ26l5Oq7fjWY5x5Q?sub_confirmation=1 Watch my Christian podcast for women: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G0ZKSvAWdZw&list=PLPKT7YZbpKzb7f5NVuDxZtUqCiK4KQnIQ Get my free ebook about Christian identity: http://bit.ly/52DEVOTIONALS Buy my merch on TeeSpring: https://annaszaboart.myteespring.co/listing/difference-maker-52devotionals?product=288&variation=6099&size=1578 Shop my Christian apparel on Amazon: https://amzn.to/2Jwh8hL Visit my Christian art store on Etsy: https://www.etsy.com/shop/AnnaSzaboArt Buy me a coffee: https://www.buymeacoffee.com/annaszabo MY PRAYER FOR YOU: Father God, I trust in the Lord with all my heart and I’m praying for the woman listening to this Christian podcast right now. I’m lifting her up to you asking that you strengthen, multiply, and compound her faith in this difficult season of life, that you reveal yourself to her right now through this message and my prayer, that you comfort her through my Christian ministry with the same comfort I myself received from you, God, and that you bless the woman who is listening right now with your divine protection, favor, provision, clarity, and promotion. I pray these sacred things in the marvelous name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. Amen.
17 minutes | Jan 10, 2021
Take Every Thought Captive - 2 Corinthians 10:5
My goal with the Biblical devotional for Christian women is to encourage and empower you. “Take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” - 2 Corinthians 10:5. Have you ever asked yourself “How do I take every thought captive?” Today, I want to comfort you more than ever with the same comfort I myself receive from God every day. I will teach you my "Six Practical Ways to Take Your Thoughts Captive." Mentioned in this Christian podcast for women are my powerful Biblical devotionals, which you can download for free here: http://bit.ly/52DEVOTIONALS The Cristian apparel with my empowering Biblical devotionals featured can be purchased here: https://amzn.to/2Jwh8hL How do I take every thought captive and make it obedient to Christ? I promised you my "Six Practical Ways to Take Your Thoughts Captive." Here are my steps when I am overcome by fears, and I hope that this process will help you get comforted by God in the same way He comforts me. Six Practical Ways to Take Your Thoughts Captive Step 1. I examine my thoughts. What am I thinking? Step 2. I pray for God’s comfort and to renew my mind. Step 3. I read God’s word, study His promises, and devour His truth as it relates to my current situation. Step 4. I declare relevant Biblical scriptures as God’s eternal truth. Step 5. I intentionally choose to believe God’s promises and not my emotions. Step 6. I practice Biblical affirmations, which I created and memorized to help me take every thought captive every time. It has to be a habit. Right now, every day, I declare the following Biblical affirmations for women. I am not alone I am never alone, God is always with me. As I pass through the deep waters, He holds me in the palm of His hand, And I trust His protection guarantee. I am powerful I can do anything and everything through Christ. To empower me, His precious life he sacrificed. I am capable, competent, skilled, and effective. Jesus gave me power and issued against my self-doubt directive. I am victorious I am more than a conqueror or a mere winner. Even in afflictions and adversity, I have peace inner. I find victory and joy. I grow in faith and hope. Through trials, my intimacy with Christ grows in scope. I am peaceful I have peace in every way. It is perfect. It is sacred. All the time my Lord is near, And by Him my life's directed. I am protected My God is with me and He strengthens me. He upholds me with His righteous right hand. He protects me from every evil and rescues me. I don't fear as on God’s eternal promises I firmly stand. I am faithful I have faith in God, my Father. I have faith in His great plan. I have faith that He will honor All His promises in my lifespan. These are my exact "Six Practical Ways to Take Your Thoughts Captive." That’s how I deal with life’s adversity by taking every thought captive to obey Christ and God’s truth. I want to leave you with my Christian poem called “Standing on God’s promises” which I hope will encourage and empower you, no matter what you’re going through. Before I share my Biblical poem, I want to invite you to support my ministry for Christian women by making a donation: http://bit.ly/EncourageAndEmpowerWomen And here’s my poem called "Standing on God’s Promises."
20 minutes | Jan 3, 2021
Be Strong and Courageous – Deuteronomy 31:6
Learn how to be strong and courageous in Christ exactly as Deuteronomy 31:6 teaches in scripture. Explore how God’s word reveals His will for you and His work in you. “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified, for the Lord your God goes with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you.” – Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV. Have you ever felt weak and fearful? I have. Today’s Biblical devotional for women is dedicated to exploring how to be strong and of good courage through Christ. From my personal experience with God, I’ve learned that being strong isn’t possible in my own power. It’s only possible when I abide in Christ. I’ve also learned on my faith journey that being courageous doesn’t mean being fearless. It means that with my free will I intentionally mobilize and deploy my faith as an antidote to my fear. In this Biblical devotional for Christian women, I will share with you how to be strong and courageous by abiding in Christ. I will also pray for you if you stick around and allow me to lift you up to God through prayer. Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous Bible verse calls us out of our natural anxiety and doubt into God’s supernatural divine power of protection, provision, and promotion. But we must believe. Faith over fear! That’s the mindset we must adopt in order to be strong and courageous as Deuteronomy 31:6 teaches us to be as Christian women. Let me tell you my story. It is a story of how scared and insecure I was when God asked me to step out of my own power and into His so that I could do the good work He prepared in advance for me to do. See, I knew what God said in Deuteronomy 31:6, only now I had to actually do it. When we have to do God’s word and not just hear or know it, things get very personal and scary. That’s what happened to me. And that’s why my entire Christian ministry Online Discipleship For Women is dedicated to helping you create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. In fact, this ministry is exactly what my story of being strong and courageous is all about. Here’s what happened to me and how God taught me to be strong and courageous as Deuteronomy 31:6 teaches us to be as Christian women. I never could have imagined starting a ministry. Not only because I myself wasn’t even a Christian for most of my life but also because something like this would be the last thing on my mind. The typical things I was excited about for most of my adult life were sex, alcohol, exotic travel, night clubs, hairdos, and shopping. I came to Christ in 2014, and God’s been working in my heart ever since, drawing me closer to Jesus one day at a time. You can read my testimony here. In the beginning, I believed in a Santa Claus kind of God: I’ll check the boxes for being nice, and God will give me a fairytale kind of perfect life. Well, that’s not how things turned out for me… Instead of having a perfect life with God, I was attacked by Satan. The devil almost destroyed my faith and hope by intentionally manipulating me into suicide. You can read what happened to me in the blog post called “How Satan Came at Me Looking Saint” and “My Story of Narcissistic Marriage.” During the next few years, I learned that on my own, I am weak and scared, but with Christ, I am strong and courageous. God’s will for me was to grow in faith. To grow my faith, He wanted me to study His word. To study His word, He needed me to choose Him using my free will. It happened when I signed up for Biblical counseling in 2016, after my husband of four months filed for divorce saying he wasn’t interested in me anymore and wanted to be an IronMan instead. I shared the details of that story in an essay called “IronMan vs Marriage.” That was when I chose to focus on God’s word. Once I wholeheartedly and intentionally focused on the word of God, my faith grew. God revealed His will to me, and I was called to step out of my fears and doubts and start a Christian ministry to encourage and empower women. I felt inadequate and unworthy but I did see the truth. Here was the truth… During that devastating marriage with the narcissist, God equipped and prepared me for His divine labor. He taught me how to be strong and courageous in the Lord, not in my own limited ability, intelligence, power, connections, finances, health, or discernment. Satan stripped me of everything, and that’s when God stepped in, rebuilt me anew, and used my story for His glory. I discovered the depths of the Gospel listening to the teachings of Randy Pope at Perimeter Church and reading the book of Laura Story called “When God Doesn’t Fix It.” Interestingly enough, the book was a gift for graduation from premarital counseling with the narcissist in 2016. And as I walked down the aisle a few months later, I was wondering why such a book was actually given to us as a wedding gift… My marriage – I was confident – was going to be God-glorifying and perfect since all the proper boxes were checked and I was marrying a good Christian man. See, I had a performance-based view of God. My Heavenly Father wanted me to be in an intimate relationship with Him and be completely dependent on Him for strength and courage. My fantasy ended as my new husband filed for divorce four months after our wedding and rejected me in every way, which is described in the essay called “My Story of Rejection.” When I ran out of my own strength and power, I read Laura Story’s book called “When God Doesn’t Fix It.” I read the Bible, too. In fact, I devoured the word of God. I was hungry for His truth. I dove deep into the Gospel and found hope and healing. I became strong and courageous in Christ instead of my own performance, intelligence, career, finances, health, power, knowledge, talent, discernment, and overall my own ability. Just a few months after my wedding, I was divorced and discovered that there’s no Santa Claus God. I also discovered that I don’t have any strength or power on my own. But I do have a sovereign, loving, kind, and understanding Heavenly Father who has a perfect plan for me, which I can’t see since I’m too close to my life circumstances. I don’t have His infinite intelligence and can’t comprehend how divorce, depression, and other “troubles in the world” can possibly be used for His good. But… I trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own limited understanding. That’s why I declare that God is good, that in my own weakness His strength is perfect, and that in Christ, I am strong and courageous. Mine is a story for God’s glory! The Source of Strength and Courage God placed this ministry for Christian women in my heart. Online Discipleship For Women was born in 2017 right after my divorce from the narcissist. The desire to share the Gospel has been burning on the inside every day ever since. That year, I also launched my Christian podcast The Anna Szabo Show and started speaking openly about my story, giving God all the honor and glory. The feedback from those who were comforted by God through my ministry was so encouraging, that I decided to also publish Christian videos on YouTube, which I began doing in December of 2017. God uniquely equipped and prepared me to minister to women by ridding me of my own strength and performance-based faith and drawing me closer to Himself so that I could step into the power of Jesus and be strong and of good courage through Christ. Sharing my testimony and encouraging women has been hard because my life story is full of adversity, drama, trauma, and pain. I shared my entire life story in an essay called “Getting To Know Anna Szabo.” It takes courage to overcome my fears every time I speak on behalf of God. He called me to do this. He gave me this ministry. I am very scared somtimes because th kinds of things I share about myself as a part of my powerful testimony are very personal and intimate. Sometimes, I get bullied online by people. But I’m strong in the Lord. I minister to women through Christ. Strong and Courageous My concept of life used to be totally wrong. In my own power, I was trying to be strong. God has taught me to lean on the Lord And grow in faith by devouring His word. In Christ, I am now strong and courageous. My faith is steadfast and contagious. To Jesus wholeheartedly I forever belong. My strength and courage are now lifelong. 1/2/2020 © Anna Szabo, JD, MBA Be Strong and Courageous It’s very important that we do not misunderstand the Be strong and courageous verse as a call to disregard our humanness. We are not called b God to be happy all the time. We are humans. Even Jesus wept when overcome with grief and genuine human emotion. We aren’t destined by God to be trapped in toxic positivity. On the contrary, God in the Bible calls us to cast our anxieties on Him because He cares. I have discussed this topic in great detail in a talk I delivered on September 19th, 2020 at TEDx Marietta Square about grief, sorrow, and mourning. My talk is called “The Healing Power of Self-Pity.” Being strong and courageous doesn’t mean being dissociative, detached, and disconnected from reality. God calls us to be aware, alert, and fully alive. I cry often. I grieve my losses and cast my anxieties on my heavenly father God who genuinely cares. By processing my life, my weaknesses, my fears, my doubts, and my insecurities, I practice being strong and courageous in Christ. All that work allowed me to also help other women process their emotions, adversity, trauma, and pain by facing their reality, reaching out for God’s help, and finding sacred peace, comfort, and joy in an intimate relationship with Jesus. As you can see, God had a good plan all the way. He comforted me when I was weak and scared so that now I can comfort other Christian women with the same comfort I myself received from God. Before I pray for you, let me answer the most commonly asked questions about Deuteronomy 31:6 and being strong and courageous. What is the meaning of Deuteronomy 31:6? De
24 minutes | Jan 1, 2021
Thanksgiving Journal 2020
Today is December 31st, 2020 New Year’s Eve, and I am sharing with you my Annual Gratitude Journal since it has become a tradition. It’s about 8:50 pm as I’m writing this. I’m at home by myself amid the global COVID-19 pandemic, and I’m dwelling on God’s blessings with a big smile on my face. Let me share what I’m grateful for this year. And I want to start with you: my podcast listeners who leave reviews on iTunes and watch my content on YouTube and to all my blog readers… I say thank you! Without you, my Christian ministry would not be where it is today. I will be praying for you at the end of my gratitude entry. I’m thankful for everyone who donated in 2020 to support Online Discipleship For Women, my Christian ministry dedicated to helping alleviate suicide among women globally by sharing hope in Christ and encouraging women to create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. Your donations make a difference. Let me start from the beginning. In 2019, I wanted to become a TEDx speaker and share my idea worth spreading about grief and its value in the process of healing trauma. On January 10th, 2020 I was chosen to be a TEDx speaker at the live audition for TEDx Marietta Square. I delivered my talk called “The Healing Power of Self-Pity” on September 19th, 2020 at a virtual event amid the pandemic. The video is available on YouTube. I am grateful that my dream of delivering a TEDx talk came true. Sharing my story through my talk, from the depths of my heart, without any pretense, completely vulnerable, I felt as f I appeared naked on a global stage. I shared the intimate details of my soul I had never shared before. And it transformed me, which ultimately resulted in an explosion of content on my blog. I am grateful. I am grateful that after all the content explosions this year, I now have 1,083,934 words of content on my Christian blog for women, all of which I personally wrote, edited, and published for you. There are no employees or freelancers here, no board of directors or interns or volunteers… It’s just me who is doing all the work because I love God and I love helping you. In the last three years, since I started Online Discipleship For Women, I birthed 177 spiritual poems and shared all of them for free on my poetry page. I wrote 52 Biblical devotionals and gave them all for free to my Christian community in a form of an ebook. I created 95 shirts, sweatshirts, baseball raglans, and other types of encouraging Christian merch on Amazon. I personally wrote 1083000 words of helpful scriptures-based content on this blog, and 83610 people read it across 208 countries. I produced almost 300 YouTube videos, and they’ve been watched 223946 times worldwide. My Christian podcast The Anna Szabo Show has been downloaded tens of thousands of times globally across 18 different syndication platforms. I produced 22 paintings, each with a spiritual tale, and built a Christin store of Etsy. I created 232 designs of Christian apparel for women on TeeSpring to encourage and empower Christian women with the word of God. I am grateful. If you want to support me, Buy Me a Coffee. I’m grateful for everyone who bought me a coffee and even three coffees and also wrote me gratitude notes, sharing how my ministry has helped them grow closer to God. I am grateful for everyone who left thoughtful and heartfelt blog comments and YouTube comments letting me know how my work impacted their lives. Your comments help me see how God is working. Your comments, podcast reviews, and donations with gratitude notes attached help grow my own faith. Thank you. I’m grateful for my amazing 37th Birthday celebration on January 18th this year. It was a vegan feast, which I personally prepared for my friends. I cooked a wide variety of plant-based dishes, and everyone loved all the food! We had many poets at my Birthday party, so we got to share our spoken word art, and my best friend Maria performed a handwritten poem, which she dedicated to my boldness, and this entire year the poem has been in my nightstand drawer so that I could get encouraged by it often. I know that my 38th Birthday will be celebrated with Maria, and we are going to be socially-isolated but very joyful. I am grateful that this year, even in the midst of the Coronavirus pandemic, God has kept me healthy. In fact, this year, I’ve enjoyed the best health of my life, and I’m almost 40! In April, I los 22 lb and have kept the weight off, so I am at my ideal 116 lb, size zero, and I feel very strong and energized. After completing many prolonged water fasts, this year, I discovered dry fasting. At least once a week, I fast from both food and water for 24-48 hours. I didn’t eat or drink anything, and this holistic health practice allowed me to enjoy the best wellness I’ve ever had. And it’s a very special blessing because I used to be very sick and even was hospitalized for up to 21 days multiple times a year, year after year. Dry fasting was a game-changer for my health, and I wrote thousands of words of helpful content about prolonged fasting on my blog here to help other people. I even started receiving donations from the fasting blog posts. My heart is full of gratitude for the fact that I was able to discover and deploy the fasting lifestyle, write about it, help others, and promote health. I am grateful that in 2020, I was able to take many solo trips and go to the best beaches in America seven times! As a kid, I didn’t get to go to the beach but once. At 18, I traveled to the ocean alone internationally after winning a fully paid all-inclusive trip in a beauty pageant in 2001. Taking myself to the beach this year so many times helped me grow my faith and heal my trauma. I wrote a detailed blog post with pictures of my solo travel adventures. I am grateful for both the opportunity to travel and also for my willingness to travel solo. I am grateful that this year, I worked out almost every day, started practicing yoga, running, and even doing back bridges for the first time in 30 years! As I’ve continued healing my trauma after my third divorce in 2017, I’ve continued improving my relationship with my body as described in an incredible book I read this year called “The Body Keeps The Score.” I’m thankful for my body, and even wrote a poem about it. I am grateful that in 2020 I read 22 new books! Reading is living for me, and I’ve been able to read books while walking my 10000 steps a day outside or at home on the trampoline. It’s been a year of growth and learning. I read about God, self-improvement, fasting, money, and other topics I love. Also, I donated 16 books to a library this year, and I am grateful for both being able to buy and give away books. Reading about personal development helped me as a teen cope with abuse at home and helped me later in life to graduate from four universities, three of them with high honors, and two of them on a full scholarship. I’m grateful for my genuine love for books. I’m grateful that I was able to permanently delete my social media: Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, Twitter, and Yelp. The only place to connect with me personally now is my blog, as well as my Christian podcast and my YouTube channel. If you want to know why I deleted my social media, feel free to ask in the comments on my blog or YouTube and I will be glad to share. It’s been a very wise decision that’s improved my life, health, relationships, and happiness. I am grateful that Joe Biden will be our President two days after my 38th birthday. I started a Prayer for America on my blog, and praying for my country really helped me get through 2020 with all of its political drama and Trump-inflicted trauma. My hope is that in our Georgia runoff election we can flip the senate blue and heal our country. I thank God for Joe Biden, who’s been, like Esther, called for such a time as this. So I am grateful for all the other elections he lost in the past because I believe President Biden is exactly who can lead our wounded country through this tragic season. I am grateful that I voted. I am grateful for journaling, working out daily, cooking at home, eating lots of raw fruits and vegetables every day, reading, meditation, 10000 steps a day, self-massage, yoga, trampoline exercises, keeping my home clean and organized, my frugal money habits, and all my other healthy habits that have helped me thrive in 2020. I am grateful for my friends who are precious jewels. In 2020, I got to spend a lot of quality time with each of my friends, one at a time. That’s what helped me realize how much I love vulnerable and real in-person, meaningful relationships. And I deleted my social media. My 2020 has been a year of healing, and I was even able to produce a short autobiography, which is called “Getting To Know Anna Szabo.” With all of its ups and downs, 2020 is another amazing year I am grateful for, and that you for being a part of it! Let me pray for you. Father God, I am praying for the woman reading now. Bless her, God! Bring her peace and joy. Fill her heart with faith and zeal for life. Reveal your unconditional love to her. Comfort her during seasons of doubt and fear. Promote her financially. Strengthen her spirit and body. Heal her heart. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
2 minutes | May 10, 2020
Coronavirus Prayer for Myself
"The Coronavirus COVID-19 Pandemic Relief Prayer for Myself" can be accessed at https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/coronavirus-covid-19-pandemic-relief-prayer/#Prayer_for_Myself Dear God, I am scared of COVID-19 but I trust your goodness and sovereignty. I am fragile, and I need you, God. I want to pray for my physical wellbeing and mental health during this time of global hysteria, cruel pandemic, and unbearable uncertainty. I thank you for my sanity, my faith, and my hope in you. I stand on your 3573 promises, God, and I ask that you protect me, Father, that you guard me, that you fill me up with the Holy Spirit so that I can be comforted and comfort others. Thank you for my food, shelter, and bills paid. Thank you for the clean drinking water and hot showers at home. Thank you, God, that I can cook, clean, and create. Thank you for my self-care skills. Thank you for keeping me humble so that I remember that I can’t do anything without you but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13); that I must trust in the Lord and not lean on my own understanding and you will make my path straight (Proverbs 3:5-6); that I must guard my heart against the F-virus spread by the media (fear) because my heart is a wellspring of everything I do (Proverbs 4:23); and that I must intentionally focus on my thinking on whatever is true, whatever is honorable, and whatever is pure (Philippians 4:8). I pray these things in the holy name of Jesus Christ, my lord and savior. Amen.
2 minutes | May 10, 2020
Coronavirus Prayer for My Neighbors
"The Coronavirus COVID-19 Pandemic Relief Prayer for My Neighbors" can be accessed at https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/coronavirus-covid-19-pandemic-relief-prayer/#Prayer_for_My_Neighbors Dear God, I am praying for my neighbors. I want to ask for divine empowerment for everyone who surrounds me here at home with neighborly love, care, and friendship. God, you said in James 1 that in this world, we will have troubles. I pray that every neighbor here gets encouraged by you and can grow in their hope and become more steadfast in their faith. I pray that you draw my neighbors close to you through this experience and renew their minds every moment of every day so that they can see this pandemic as an opportunity to experience you, God. Abba, you are the God of all comfort and the Father of compassion who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from you, God (2 Corinthians 1:3-4). Father God, you have comforted me in many troubles. Allow me to comfort my neighbors with hope from you and faith in you. I pray in the name of Jesus. Amen.
1 minutes | May 10, 2020
Coronavirus Prayer for My Friends
"The Coronavirus Prayer for My Friends" can be accessed at https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/coronavirus-covid-19-pandemic-relief-prayer/#Prayer_for_My_Friends Dear God, I pray for the health, wellbeing, and sanity of my friends. I pray that you reveal yourself to each of them in a special way right now so that they all have hope. I pray that my friends survive the Coronavirus and learn to thrive from this experience. I pray that they trust your promises, God: that you are constant and reliable (James 1:17), that you are loving (John 3:16), that you are good (Luke 18:19), that you will use all things together for good (Romans 8:28), and that you have a plan to prosper and not to harm my friends (Jeremiah 29:11). I pray in the marvelous name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
2 minutes | May 10, 2020
Coronavirus Prayer for the Hopeless
"The Coronavirus COVID-19 Pandemic Relief Prayer for the Hopeless" can be accessed at https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/coronavirus-covid-19-pandemic-relief-prayer/#Prayer_for_Those_Who_Have_Lost_Their_Hope Dear God, everyone’s life sometimes rocks and sometimes sucks. Yet, it’s worth living. You are the only one constant and everlasting. You’re always good, and your plan is perfect. You tell us in Psalm 42:11 to “Put your hope in God.” We put our hope in the government, the economy, the job, the income, the doctors, the vaccines, the family, the friends, the gym, the restaurants, the grocery stores, the toilet paper, but all we need is you. God, you are the one and only source of all hope. Open up our eyes and let us see that hope and help both come from you (Psalm 121:2). Hope in the good things yet unseen is what our faith is all about (Hebrews 11:1). Let us hope by faith, Father God. Psalm 121:7-8 tells us “The Lord will keep you from all harm – he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.” Let us trust this promise, Father God. Let us remain hopeful despite the fear spread by the media and despite our unstable emotions right now. Let us find stability in you and hope in your 3573 promises. I pray in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
2 minutes | May 10, 2020
Coronavirus Prayer for My Country
"The Coronavirus COVID-19 Pandemic Relief Prayer for My Country" can be accessed at https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/coronavirus-covid-19-pandemic-relief-prayer/#Prayer_for_My_Country Father God, I pray for our country. Free it from Coronavirus COVID-19 and the panic. Liberate our country from the spread of illnesses and deaths. Set our country free from the economic hardships it’s currently enduring. Bless our country with peace, health, and prosperity. Colossians 3:2 asks us to “Set our minds on things above, not on earthly things.” Here on earth, the media is creating panic and enticing us to fear. Let us remember that you are in charge, God. Let us focus on our many blessings, even in the midst of the Coronavirus COVID-19 pandemic. God, in Psalm 23:4 we have a promise for the hard times like this from you: “Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” Father God, we are walking through the valley of the shadow of death right now as a country, so let us fear no evil and receive divine comfort from you every moment. In the name of Jesus. Amen.
4 minutes | May 10, 2020
Coronavirus Prayer for My World
"The Coronavirus COVID-19 Pandemic Relief Prayer for My World" can be accessed at https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/coronavirus-covid-19-pandemic-relief-prayer/#Prayer_for_My_World Dear God, I am lifting up our global world in prayer right now asking you to heal our planet from the Coronavirus COVID-19 and to free us all from the panic. Abba, Psalm 24:1 says “The earth is the Lord’s and everything in it – the world and all who live in it.” We are all yours. Everything in this world is yours. Let us remember that we belong to you and you’re here. You have a plan. You’ve got this. Father God, you said in Titus 2:11-12 “For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people. It teaches us to say “No” to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in this present age.” The media is working overtime to scare us. Give us the wisdom and strength to discern. Allow us to say no and resist our worldly passion for knowing what’s going on every second or every minute of every hour of every day. Let us practice self-control and stay focused on you, not viruses. God, you said in John 14:27 “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” Let us not be afraid. Instead of clicking on every bad news headline and spreading fear on social media, let us trust you, God, let us rest in your peace, let us stand on your 3573 promises and keep an eternal perspective on the Coronavirus COVID-19 pandemic. You asked us in Mark 16:15 to “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.” Let this season be the season where we don’t spread any scary news from the media but spread the good news from you, God. Give us the courage to comfort the world and each other by sharing your peace which passes all understanding. God, you love our world. John 3:16 says “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son.” You proved your love for our world. Let us learn in this season how to appreciate your love, how to trust your love, and how to love you back, God. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
8 minutes | Feb 10, 2020
A Letter to My Mother
May God speak to your heart and heal you through this open letter to my Narcissistic Mother originally published at https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/an-open-letter-to-my-mother It’s a forgiveness decree setting my mother free from the debt she owed me and liberating me from the curse of narcissistic abuse. Dear Mom, I am writing this letter to acknowledge everything that happened between us and to let you know that I forgive you. Not only that, mom, but also, I understand you. I understand that you gave me everything you could, everything you had. I wanted more but you didn’t have it. It’s just that simple. I wanted you to love me with compassion, care, and wisdom, but the truth is, mom, your mother didn’t raise you with love, compassion, and wisdom. You abused me, it’s true, but it’s also true that you were abused. You were angry. You were cruel. You were abusive. It’s true, and I was so hurt. Yet, it’s also true, that you were raised surrounded by angry, cruel, and really abusive people. You were suffering from the people who were suffering from the people who were suffering from the people who were also suffering. You told me once that our family was cursed. I believe in the generational curse, which is caused by our mind, what we choose to believe, think, and do. It’s Biblical and real, because of our brain’s neuroplasticity. Generational curses are embedded in the DNA but can be reversed by choosing different beliefs, thoughts, and actions. Yes, we were cursed. But that curse has no more power. What I choose to believe is this: God created in me in His image and made me a part of your family to stop the curse. What I choose to think is this: you did the best you could under the circumstances. What I choose to do is this: I forgive you, mom, once and for all. You are free, and so am I. This letter symbolizes the end of my lifelong suffering. The generational curse of narcissistic abuse is over, it ends this day. My heart is filled with love and compassion for you, and all I want for you is hope, peace, and joy. My heart is filled with hope, peace, and joy. I love you. Mom, you hurt me, you traumatized me, you damaged me, you abused me, you violated me, you humiliated me publicly, you bullied me, and you inflicted so much pain on me. You broke my heart, mom. You distorted my identity. Mom, you were supposed to love me. But instead, you abused me. You are the one who had the responsibility to protect me, nurture me, teach me, prepare me for life, show me what respect and honor look like in a woman’s life, and equip me to be a functional adult. Yet, you chose to teach me promiscuity, adultery, alcoholism, and suicide. Dysfunction, addictions, anger, jealousy, violence, adultery, cheating, hatred, sarcasm, cynicism, doubt, depression, and rage – that’s what you consistently taught me, over and over again. Most importantly, you taught me to hate and despise myself. You taught me that I am a nobody, that I do not matter, and that my dreams and aspirations are delusional. You taught me that life is not for me, that I’m an outsider in this life, that my reality is an illusion because I was not supposed to be born, that I was a mistake, and that I don’t deserve to live. Mom, you chose to shatter my identity and persuade me that I am worthless, useless, unwanted, unloved, ugly, stupid, and crazy. You taught me to believe wholeheartedly that I do not belong in life, that I need to be dead, that I am no match for actual human living. The truth is this: you delivered me here but you did not make me. I came here not from you, mom. I came here through you from God. God made me. I was made by God, mom, I am precious, worthy, loved, and alive for a purpose. God brought me here for His divine purpose. You have no power over my mind anymore, mom, no more suicidal ideation, no more self-hatred, no more self-doubt, no more self-harming, no more feeling like I am your servant. Mom, I have a purpose for my life, there’s a big plan, and God made me a part of it. I choose life. I am liberating myself from the curses of the cruel abuse, the countless lies, the profound hatred, the traumatic impact, and the negative influence of your family’s generational curse. The curse no longer has any power over me. From this day forward, I am walking with God in the power of Christ and my heart is filled with love. And I love you. My desire for a genuine relationship with you is still alive but I do recognize and accept that we can’t have a safe relationship. This is a hard truth to deal with but I trust God and I am following in the steps He ordained for my life. I know that God will make every wrong thing right. I always wanted to have a good mother-daughter relationship with you. It never happened. I’ve grieved my losses. And I forgive you, mom. From this day on, I choose life. I choose God. I am His, and He made me alive, precious, special, and wonderful. God gave me a new identity. I am a child of God. Mom, I forgive you. I forgive you because of Jesus Christ, my lord and savior. You are forgiven, mom. I am leaving right here the heavy burden of my bitterness and resentment. I am setting myself free right now. I am liberating my soul right now. I am choosing to live. I am excited about my future. I am filled with peace and joy. I like who I am. I respect and honor myself. And I accept your choices. Mom, you don’t owe me anything anymore. I’m releasing you from the debt, and this is your debt-free decree. I love you and I will honor you as my mother by staying away from your abuse and hatred, by being a functional and productive adult, by serving God and His kingdom, and by sharing my story of God’s glory to encourage and empower other survivors, the daughters like me of mothers like you. I choose to set you free. I choose to also liberate myself and be free. Mom, you are released from being indebted to me, and I am released from being in bondage with you. I pray for your peace and salvation. I love you, mom. I pray that you will find joy and contentment. I pray for your healing. As for me, I pray that I will continue to choose life every day and make this world a better place by being in it – alive. In Jesus’ marvelous holy name I pray. Amen.
122 minutes | Feb 4, 2020
Who Am I In Christ?
Have you ever asked yourself "Who Am I In Christ?" or "What Does God Say About Me?" or "Who Does The Bible Say I Am?" If you are wondering about your identity in Christ, this episode of my Christian podcast for women is going to help you. I will share with you a detailed Who Am I In Christ list and scriptures. These are 52 Biblical Affirmations received in my conversations with God. Find all of them here: https://onlinediscipleshipforwomen.com/who-am-i-in-christ ADDITIONAL RESOURCES MENTIONED IN THIS EPISODE OF THE ANNA SZABO SHOW: Identity in Christ blog My Christian canvas wall art on Etsy 52 Devotionals on Pinterest Christian Shirts for Women on Amazon Christian Shirts on Teespring #52Devotionals My shop AnnaSzabo.com/shop My addiction story Reading challenge 2020 My TEDx speaker story Knowing Jesus vs Quoting The Bible Spiritual Warfare and The Armor of God My Experience with People from Seminary How To Be Kind 20 Love Lessons in 35 years Gratitude Journal 2017-2019 WHO AM I IN CHRIST? You are a Princess, a daughter of the King of the entire Universe. And so am I. When I made this very statement during my baptism in front of a few thousand people, many people came to talk to me about it. Read my My Testimony here. The next time I said it at church, women laughed. But I asked: “Do you believe that God is the Sovereign King He says He is?” And the ladies said yes. I asked: “Do you believe that God created you and He is your Heavenly father?” The women said yes. Ok, Princess. They agreed. There are 52 great things you can tell yourself in a form of Biblical affirmations because they are what God says about you. How do I know? How I Know the answers to the question "Who Am I In Christ?" I searched the answer to the same question while struggling with severe depression and suicidal thoughts during my divorce with the husband who abandoned me after 4 months of marriage. I know what it feels like to think you don’t even matter, that no one cares, and that you are unloved. I couldn’t stand my self-destructive thoughts about my life anymore, so I searched the Bible to answer that one burning question I had: “Who does God say I am?” My Biblical Discoveries about who I am in Christ Below is a list of 52 amazing, freeing, liberating “I am” statements I want you to memorize to help you battle that negative self-talk next time it attacks you. I divided these Biblical affirmations into 4 groups on purpose. The “Fundamentals of God’s Grace” group is about the foundational truth about Jesus, Cross, and Salvation. The “New Identity in Jesus” group is about being a child of God and a new creation, beautifully made in the image of God. The “Christ-Like Character Qualities” group is about having the discernment from the Holy Spirit, being confident and wise. The “Biblical Outlook on Life” group is about our hope for the future. James 1:22 says “be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.” What it means to me and you is that we must first seek to understand what God says about us, but then we must remember His word and we must practice His view of us, every single day. Are you in? If so, memorize the following Biblical affirmations. Who Does God Say I Am? Fundamentals of God’s Grace I am forgiven (1 John 1:9, Ephesians 1:7) I am accepted (Romans 14:3, Romans 15:7, Acts 10:34-35) I am loved (John 3:16, Romans 5:8, Romans 8:35-39) I am healed (Isaiah 53:5, Psalm 103:2-5, Jeremiah 17:14, Jeremiah 30:17, Psalm 30:2-3) I am blessed (Psalm 32:1-2, Ephesians 1:3) I am special and chosen (1 Thessalonians 1:4, 1 Peter 2:9, Genesis 2:7) I am justified and sanctified (Galatians 2:17-21, Galatians 3:10-14) I am alive (1 John 5:12, Ephesians 2:4-5) I’m new and transformed (1 Corinthians 6:18, 2 Corinthians 5:17) I am noble and lovely (Colossians 3:12) I am beautiful (Ephesians 2:10, Genesis 1:27, Isaiah 62:3) I am holy (1 Corinthians 6:11, Ephesians 4:22-24, 1 Peter 2:9) I am worthy (Galatians 2:20, 1 Corinthians 6:11) I am righteous (Romans 3:21, Romans 5:19) I am valuable (Luke 12:7, Romans 8:2, Matthew 5:16) I am anointed (1 John 2:27, 1 Corinthians 1:21, Ephesians 1:13-14) I am free (Romans 6:18, Romans 8:1-2, Galatians 4:7, Galatians 5:) I am renewed (Ezekiel 36:26, Galatians 5:22-23) I am not alone (Romans 8:28, Isaiah 41:10) New Identity in Christ I am a princess (Galatians 3:26, Psalm 136:26, Romans 15:7) I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14) I am a disciple of Jesus (John 8:31-32, John 12:26, 1 John 2:3-6) I am a child of God (Galatians 3:26) I am a citizen of Heaven (Philippians 3:20, Philippians 4:11-12) I am God’s glory on display (Isaiah 49:3, John 13:31-32, 2 Peter 1:17, Colossians 1:27, Colossians 3:17) I am God’s masterpiece (Ephesians 2:10) I am a difference-maker (Ephesians 2:10) I am light (Matthew 5:14-16) I am a peacemaker (Matthew 5:9, Romans 12:18, Colossians 3:15, Philippians 4:6-7, 1 Thessalonians 5:13, Numbers 25:12) Christ-Like Character Qualities I am wise (1 Corinthians 1:30, Isaiah 11:2, James 1) I am clear and focused (2 Timothy 1-7) I am intentional (Jeremiah 1:5, Ephesians 6:13-15, 1 Corinthians 7:17) I am decisive (Proverbs 3:5-6, James 1:5, Isaiah 30:21) I am powerful (Philippians 4:13, Acts 1:8, 2 Timothy 1-7, Philippians 3:20) I am disciplined (2 Timothy 1-7) I am thoughtful (Romans 12:2) I am prudent (Proverbs 8:12, Proverbs 14:8, Proverbs 14:15, Proverbs 14:18, Proverbs 22:3) I am confident (Philippians 1:6, Philippians 4:13) I am courageous (Joshua 1:9) I am victorious (Romans 8:37) Biblical Outlook on Life I am kind (Ephesians 4:31-32, 1 Corinthians 13:4) I am loving (1 John 4:7-8, John 13:34-35, 1 Cor 16:14) I am hopeful (1 Corinthians 15:19, Proverbs 24:14, Proverbs 24:20, Romans 12:12, Romans 15:13) I am joyful (Romans 15:13, Psalm 28:7, Psalm 100:2) I am grateful (Colossians 2:7, Colossians 3:17, Philippians 4:6, Proverbs 3:5-6) I am strong (Deuteronomy 31:6, Ephesians 6:10) I am protected (Isaiah 41:10, Isaiah 54:17, 2 Timothy 4:18, Proverbs 19:23) I am peaceful (2 Thessalonians 3:16, John 16:33, Isaiah 26:3, Philippians 4:6-7) I am patient (Matthew 7:7, Psalm 27:14, Proverbs 14:29, Ephesians 4:2) I am faith-filled (Isaiah 43:1-3, Romans 9:6-8) I am gifted (Romans 6:23) I am creative (Exodus 35:31-32, Colossians 3:23) Wow! How do you feel now when you know this beautiful truth about yourself? For me, life will never be perfect, but these affirmations are reminders of who I am in Christ and this gives me joy and peace.
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