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TRIGGER WARNING: assault awareness This is my last episode. Thanks for listening, whoever you are. I really needed a place like this to just leave it out there. But now it's time for me to speak up rather than bottling it up. It's been real, I'm the Homo and thanks for listening.

It's been a good while since my last episode. I recorded this in February, but I'm barely finding time to upload it now because of midterms! In a nutshell, I talk about getting my hopes up and what it's like to be a soft person. I also get into one-sided relationships. *update since this episode is that I bought my ticket to see Hayley Kiyoko in May!!!

In this episode I talk about finding queer latina representation in the media (yaaaaaas) and how it reflects with myself. I also talk about not being "mexican enough" and I realize I didn't really explain what a "pocha concha" means. Here's a video from PeroLike to help explain! Also, try and guess how many times I said the word "granted" https://youtu.be/s2GiZhWoD-k

Before giving the description, I'd like to note a few things. I tend to joke and pick at myself when I deal with my feelings. If I ever stereotype, it is not toward a specific sexuality, and I would never try to offend anyone. I have a horrible habit of being mean to myself, so I apologize. Second, in this episode I talk about my family asking if I'm transitioning. I would never try to offend anyone from our community. I am speaking my truth that I am not 100% accepted as a lesbian, but, instead my family would rather me be who I am not. Forgive me if I ever sound ignorant. This episode, I talk about being friends with someone I like. I also talk about adulting, life falling into place, and being afraid of "happiness." I also give an update about being back on campus. The episode is a bit longer because I combined two recordings from two different days!

Happy New Year! In this episode, I talk a bit about my resolutions and get a little more personal about my decision to separate myself from the church. I focus on talking about doing what is right for me despite what that may look like to others.

First update since being home for the holidays. Yes, I'm alive and yes I'm fine. It's still the most wonderful time of the year. I just needed a moment to myself to get all of this out since I don't really have privacy in mi casa. Sorry, I think I start yelling at some point. I just have a lot of feelings.

It's the most horrible time of the year aka FINALS HAVE TAKEN OVER. I want to cry and this is just another episode me rambling about my gay feelings. Also considering to put my feelings up on craigslist: For Sale- gay feelings, $5 and negotiable because they aren't worth that much. Don't grow up, everything is a scam okay bye!

Today, we talk about my fave topic ever: GIRLS! I talk to you about dating, growing up gay, and assuming typical male gender roles.

My most used tag on tumblr is called "#notes to self" I started scrolling through and found a set theme and even some letters addressed to myself. They all pertained in some way of wanting to grow, learn; longing for some kind of change. So I wrote yet another letter to myself giving advice to future Jessica, because from what I saw, she's still letting her fear and insecurities control her. So "Jessica-5-years-from-now" if there's one thing you took away from this letter, I hope it's that you fell in love with the home that your heart calls "self."

I needed to take some time to regroup and went home for the weekend. Out of it comes this episode where I talk about a number of things from cultural appropriation, growing up conservative, being first generation, and it all comes together for my main theme: I have daddy issues! More so, I just have parent issues but it's all good. I'm all over the place as usual and if you're listening, bless you because I feel like I'm hard to keep up with. Okay BYE! "hick-spanic": a white washed Hispanic aka what I call will refer to my family at times.

Some lighter content about representation and why it matters! Here are the links to the videos I was referring to in the episode- Hayley Kiyoko Girls Like Girls: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I0MT8SwNa_U Sleepover: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6jxPFtIAnw Feelings: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TV-_Yuc228s Ashly Perez Buzzfeed Coming Out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mSYKo_Dlmys You Do Two Ep 1 (5:04 is defs me): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lj8xp6Q8QJw&t=447s

In this episode, I talk about dream interpretation and analysis, recurring dreams of my own and how it all connects to my waking life. You also find out that I'm a dom/top but that's story for another time.

In this episode I talk about ghosting, being ghosted, and dating as an introverted individual (it's all over the place!)

Just a bit of a life update, school has been hectic so I've fallen behind with story time.

In this episode, I bring together episodes 2,3, and 4 and talk about struggling with suicide. I also introduce my fur baby: Eleven and talk about her adoption story!

This episode is a compilation of old recordings, videos, and audio from a year ago today to show where I was. I Am a Man Who Will Fight for Your Honor by Chris Zabriskie is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license (https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/) Source: http://chriszabriskie.com/honor/ Artist: http://chriszabriskie.com/