Episode 004 - Fasting: Diving Deeper with Doubt
An excerpt from my book Fast Forward:
" Your doubt is a vehicle into a deeper truth because it is revealing that your spirit and your mind thirst after fuller knowledge. Often times we silence our doubts, not with the knowledge of God (1 Pet 3:15), but with a fearful silence which causes our doubt to make us lukewarm (Rev 3:16) and that is because inherently we think it is wrong to doubt and we shy away from even discussing our doubts or addressing them which restricts our growth, but we know that many doubted in the bible (Job, Gideon, Barak, Thomas, etc) but as a result of them confronting their doubt they were shown a deeper truth because if you ask-even for knowledge- it will be given to you (Matt 7:7). Faith is not the absence of doubt, it is preserving in spite of doubt
“...Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."- Matthew 17:20
When you are hungry you feed yourself food, you take the signal that your body is giving you that it requires food and you feed it. Doubt-like hunger in the body- is indicative of a hungry soul and mind and what it requires is truth to appease and satisfy it. If I gave you motor-oil when you said you were hungry, you would remain hungry because that is not what your body requires, and if you drank it it would kill you.However, if I gave you food you would be satisfied in the same way the body requires food, the soul needs a full knowledge (a revelation) to be full and when we ignore our doubts or shy away from them without addressing them and conquering them with godly truths our soul only grows hungrier and dies if fed the wrong thing or left abandoned in its entirety. We can literally starve our souls to death! It would be silly to tell someone who is hungry to “Just ignore it, it will go away.” or to say, “It’s wrong to be hungry!” or to even try and outrun yet this is what we say to ourselves when we doubt or, worse still, what we hear from other people.Hunger is as ubiquitous and inevitable as doubt- it happens to everyone at some point so we need to learn how to lean in and allow the doubts we experience to take us you deeper by satisfying them with full epignosis knowledge. "