What happened to the podcast?! Crying and ketamine with Zoe Winther
What happened to the podcast?! Crying, Ketamine, Coronavirus and Cher with Zoe Winther - “I didn’t even want to let my mind wander, because I was afraid of where it would go.” - Disclaimer: What we talk about on In My Truth tends to be very raw and can be triggering. Resources for support and help are included at the end of show notes - scroll down for more information. - Welcome everyone back to this week’s episode of In My Truth. It has been quite a while between releasing episodes, although I’ve just released a flood of backdated content! It has been a while since I’ve recorded, so it’s really nice to be back on air AND I have the reason why we haven’t been on air with me as our guest today! My dear friend Zoe Winther and I thought it would be a fun way to get started again. Zoe is the editor and producer of this podcast, and in this episode we’re going to dive in to where she’s been and her truth behind why we put pause on In My Truth. Zoe Winther is the podcast’s biggest fan, listening to every podcast at least three times during the edit and show notes process. It has been an important step in her personal journey, and the themes it has brought into her life. Along with being a podcast producer, Zoe is the founder of Pickford Media and a talented writer - although it still feels unnatural for her to introduce herself to the world without the business context. In fact, one of Zoe’s poems resonated with me so strongly I shared it with my audience last year, and we’ll share it again now: - I wish that I could stay in this box for you. And I promise I would even though it’s the wrong shape for me and I have to break my bones and rearrange my organs just to fit. I would stay here and wait for you and, like all the boys that have come and gone before, I would set myself alight just to keep you warm. I would set these broken parts to mend in misdirections. I would live in ashes, bent backwards, facing the wrong way, if I knew that every moment could be like the first ones. If you could acknowledge how misshapen I’d become and how much pain I lived in by being with you. If knowing my discomfort you might carry around the box I lived in and gingerly guard me from the world around. And being too scared to rip the box hinge from hinge for fear of what I might be when I stretched my limbs again, you could at least recognise who I could be, even deformed. For I know you might not be strong enough to splinter your own hands prying it open, but if you could just open the lid every now and then, or puncture a window to let in the sun, I would stay here. Wishing this box was my shape. You can find more of Zoe’s writing and subscribe to her newsletter on her website here: www.zoewinther.com/love-notes - So, let’s go back to why we haven’t recorded for a while and dive in to where Zozo has been! - “This is so silly but how special would it be to honour my eight year old’s version of a wedding?” - Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Zoe Winther in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into relationships with the men in their lives, not being seen, and doing the work during COVID-19 isolation. - “I do this podcast for no other reason than the universe told me to do it.” - Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Zoe Winther get deep into the stories around masculinity, what happened when Sarah left Wealth Enhancers and had a breakdown, and all the healing work we’ve done and continue to do. - “The whole experience showed me that, what’s more important to me in this life is my relationships and my connections with people and the energetic exchange. It doesn’t matter, this business stuff or podcast editing or whatever, what matters is: Are you okay, and I love you, and I’m here when you’re ready." - Since sharing more of their stories, Sarah and Zoe are both keenly aware of the spaces our loved ones can create and hold for us to feel safe to share and to be seen, and how we can be doing that for others. Where and how are you showing up for your people? What have you learnt from holding space for others? Zoe and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around: ending up back at the parents’ house what it really means to get married reconciling masculine and feminine energy in our careers suicidal ideation finding our inner strength feeling let down by the men in our lives friends ending their lives the blessings in negative space being connected at a soul level intuition staying clear irrespective of other people’s opinions space gratitude childhood memories ayahuasca and ketamine ceremonies healing work spending time in the darkness feeling aligned with our own energy introspection during lockdown reconnecting with family isolating with a new partner sitting in discomfort the gifts in resistance not knowing how to expand plant medicine partying alcohol abuse - “I had to spend all of this time in the darkness, in the trenches, in the pits of hell to get through all of that and heal it, and get to a place now where the space opened up for me to welcome back the goodness of my childhood and my life.” - Resources, people and ideas mentioned in this episode of In My Truth: Conscious Culture Podcast https://www.growmyteam.com.au/podcast Soltara Ayahuasca Retreat https://www.sarahriegelhuth.com/words/2019/5/25/ayahuasca-1 Sarah’s Childhood Rewritten https://www.sarahriegelhuth.com/words/2020/4/6/childhood - “‘It’s fascinating because imagine if [COVID-19] happened a year ago.’ ‘Oh, fuck!’ ‘I mean, I was not in a good place, so I am grateful for this timing!’” - Remember you’re not alone, and there is hope, even though it may not feel that way at times. Talk to someone, a friend or family member and let them support you. Reach out to a professional. Do whatever you need to do to start your journey back to feeling good. Here are some resources I found on Google (because I am not a professional, these are not recommendations, just suggestions with love and empathy from me to you): Lifeline (Australia): 13-11-14 is a confidential telephone crisis support service available 24/7 from a landline, payphone or mobile. Beyond Blue (Australia): 1-300-22-4636 OR chat online between 3pm & 12am 7 days a week No Shame On You (USA): 1-800-273-(TALK) 8255 OR text 741741 for a 24/7 crisis text line (a live, trained crisis counsellor receives the text and responds quickly) OR visit I’m Alive for 24/7 online crisis chat National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (USA): 1-800-273-8255 Crisis Services (Canada): 1-833-456-4566 OR text 45645 between 4pm and 12am daily - To never miss an episode, subscribe to In My Truth with Sarah Riegelhuth. 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