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I am so excited!Should I say it not? While I jinx it if I say it?Ok, I will say it. We have found it and now I can see the path again. I can see how we can move on.What a change it has made.

It's been hard. It's been harder than I thought.I am not going to lie. We are in no difficulties, but life is a bit uncomfortable. Not what we imagined and I miss my things, my stuff, my routine.

Try new things... they sayStep out of your comfort zone... they sayEasy, isn't it?But there are so many comfort zones I have created I am struggling to even recognise them. Do I really want to do it? Am I procrastinating as an excuse?Where do I start from?

Life throws stuff at us, and people tell us: don't give up, keep going, show resilience.... and all that is good. But, is there a time to admit defeat? to change the goal? to move on?

Have you found yourself looking and using every excuse under the sun to not do something? maybe something small or something big but just not doing it.That's what was happening to me. In fact, it has happened many times. Sometimes i did well holding back, others not so much.

Have you seen this episode of Friends. The one in which Joey "breaks the dog".I have been thinking a lot about it recently as I found myself in a similar situation.

I am finding myself with what I always wanted: free time... and I am realising I don't know what to do with it.Have you found yourself in the same situation? is it good, bad or neither?

Today I start the second series of this podcast. I have changed the name from "diary of a parent in lockdown" to "diary of a parent going through life" which I guess it means, I am going to share more varied stuff. My only purpose is to open up to the difficulties of day to day any parent (dad in my case) might be feeling and how we are going through it. Sometimes we'll get it right, other times we might not.The second series is all around the big change we have coming when we leave London and move to Amsterdam. in a few months.

It sounds obvious and everybody will say it. Not everybody needs to like me and I don't need to like everybody. Easier said than done. But this week was a crash course on it. Do you know what I learnt? that I am a good decent person and by and large, I get along with people. So, I can look at the exception, or I can put perspective and realise that I am a good decent people. I choose the second option.Have a nice eveningJavier

To the risk of spoiling the episode, I'll say I am very angry today. I didn't wan to do the entry and was finding difficult to find words in between the anger.Through the 10 minutes of the entry, I came with a couple of ideas, but one that is more powerful than the rest. Is it helping? Well, it's not changing the whole day, but it is helping me bit by bit.Hope your day is going betterJavier

I received some bad news yesterday.In the big scheme of things, nothing awful, but it was bad for me and for a number of people. This gets me thinking, when determination and resilience has to stop and adaptability and change of plans have to kick in.Cut your looses and live to fight another day?orLive to live another day?

As a family, we have taken a long time to make a decision. We have now done so and I thought it would not affect me.. but it does, a lot. So I am a bit messed up and don't articulate my ideas clearly, but that's me today. Tomorrow, who knows?Have a nice SundayJavier

I am aware I have touched in this topic several times before, but it is just keep coming back, so I assume it is important.I have always know how important are my friends and family for me. I am now seeing the great change they make on me. I am privilege to have them.Pick up the phone, call them. Call somebody you haven't heard from for a while. Have a chat, meaningful or meaningless, it will help them and you.Have a lovey dayJavier

So, two totally unconnected experiences have happened recently. I am not clear if there is a message connecting both of them, but I thought i'd share them.One is all about my dad, his legacy, his work and how it is being credited to somebody else. We don't know if intentionally or not.Secondly, how our acts create a ripple effect and consequences come to us. As a no Karma believer, I am eating my words.

In the day to day work and changes, and challenges and emotions, and concerns and... everything, I forget to think about the things, people achievements that I am proud of.This one is for all those people, family and friends, that have accepted and supported me. I am so proud of all of you, of counting you as my friend and that you accept me as your friend.What are you proud of?Have a nice eveningJavier

This has been one of those unremarkable days that flies by and leaves nothing meaningful at all behind.So, in order to avoid wasting a whole day I highlight a couple of small but fun things I enjoyed. I guess, my point is that there is something to save even from the most dull of the days.Have a nice dayJavier

It's been a great day so far.Something as simple as a bit of snow and the town is out, enjoying, laughing and sharing the experience. Sometimes, small things can have such a great effect.I have this stupid smile on my face and seriously enjoying it.Days like this reminds me to cheer up, it's going to be ok.Loads of hugsJavier

Well, after an eventful day with technology problems, maybe the universe was trying to send me a message, maybe I was trying to send a message or maybe chance is having a go at me and derailing any serious attempt. Who knows? but something tells me this is where I need to be and how I need to be.Don't tell me wrong, I am not keen to go through this. I'd rather avoid it, but maybe, just maybe, this is what needs to be.Not sure if any of the above makes any sense.... hope it does for you.Have a nice dayJavier

"Waiting for the fish to biteor waiting for the wind to fly a kiteor waiting around for Friday nightOr waiting, perhaps, for their uncle Jakeor a pot to boil, or a better breakor a string of pearls, or a pair of pantsor a wig with curls, or Another chance.Everyone is just waiting."(Dr Seuss, Oh the places you'll go)

Today I am experiencing the good, the bad, the ugly and everything in between.Hard to express how to feel when all those are coming randomly. So what to do? how to manage? do I need to manage it or just let it go? Can I sit and wait? Not a lot comes to my mind. In fact, only one word comes to my mind: believe.Have a nice dayJavier