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My best attempt to communicate the transcendent and ephemeral as they relate to the ways one might (fail to) relate to one's body. Content advisory: unutterable sadness, a salty word. Music in this episode was composed by Eric Satie and performed by Jaan Patterson. Additional sounds from Lex Griffin of Lex Fitness and freesound.org members Luna Drive, patobottos, tetrisrocker, st303, and justkiddink. Did you have thoughts and feels about this series? I would love to hear them! find me on the instas @consumedxx or @sspiveyk

Being in a body is hard. Gender, with all its layers of expectation and assumption, makes it harder. Eating disorders have an especially high rate amongst queer and trans folks, and are often not recognized as existing for cis men. This episode gets into all that.   Content advisory: some real tired ideas that somehow keep wrecking everyone up.   Music in this episode was composed by Eric Satie, performed by Kevin Macloud, and mixed by spivey k.   insta @sspiveyk or @consumedxx

Narratives and beliefs don't exist somewhere in the abstract - they exist in our bodies and mediate our experiences of the world. This is the story of how the theologies of spivey's and SJ's childhoods did its best to separate them from their bodies. Content advisory: bad theology, a swear. Music in this episode was performed by the Tudor Consort,  Nic Tijerina, and Kevin Macloud under creative commons licenses.

It can feel impossible to convey the inner experience of an eating disorder - why 'just eating' makes zero sense as a solution. This episode goes into that inner world: to the messy, dark, stifling places that can keep one locked inside. Content warning: food, food logs, calories, panic attacks, exercise routines, hospitalization, depression, anxiety, some swears. Music in this episode was composed by Erik Satie, produced by Kevin Maclead, and mixed by yours truly.

In which we meet our three protagonists: spivey, SJ, and Callum, and begin to tell the stories of how we lost connection to our bodies. Content advisory: eating disorders, mental health, hospitalization, some swears. Say hello on Instagram @consumedxx or @sspiveyk . . Music in this episode was composed by Eric Satie, performed by Kevin Macleod, and mixed by spivey k. Credit to freesound.org user justkiddink for the singing bowl.

A few notes before the series begins- where did it come from? whats up with the name? why bother listening when the world is melting? Say hello on the 'grams: @consumedxx or @sspiveyk First full length episode coming in one week! Subscribe and tell all your friends!

Coming June 2: a five-part serial that tells the story of three people with an eating disorder and the fracturing of body and soul experienced therein. subscribe now so you don't miss an episode! connect with @consumedxx on instagram