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We're back!!Sometimes it's irresistible, necessary even, to lose ourselves into the greater collective, to become a honeybee buzzing with the ecstatic singular purpose of the hive.In this season 3 opener, Jamie tells Dr. H her story of trying to save herself by losing herself, then finally coming to face the fact that she had to plumb the depths of her trauma alone, culminating in a high dose DIY psilocybin session and the rediscovery of herself.BFTA/Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

In this final episode of season 2,  Chris and Craig explore the highs and lows of the last year and plans for season 3.BFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

Antidepressants, mood stabilizers, antipsychotics, benzodiazepines, stimulants.....READY SET GO!Med cheat sheetSSRIs (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors)-- Prozac, Lexapro, Paxil, Celexa, Zoloft, Luvox, Trintellix, Viibryd-- They are generally NOT antidepressantsMainly helpful for OCD, body dysmorphia,  panic (if not from trauma), depression if postpartum or fueled by neuroticism or ruminative anxietySNRIs (serotonin norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors)-- Effexor/venlafaxine, Cymbalta/duloxetineMostly helpful for combined depression/anxiety, especially with insomniaWellbutrin/bupropion-- very stimulating (prison crack!), true antidepressant; can trigger/worsen anxietyMAO  (monoamine oxidase) inhibitors-- powerful antidepressants, lots of side effects and med interactionsLamictal/lamotrigine-- definitely ALL THAT and a bag of chips (see My Desert Island Meds in Season 1)Atypical antipsychotics-  Abilify/aripiprazole, Latuda/lurasidone, Seroquel/quetiapine, Saphris/asenapine, Vraylar/cariprazine, Risperdal/risperidone, Zyprexa/olanzapine, Geodon/ziprasidone, Invega/paliperidone Generally good mood stabilizers (in contrast to the putative "mood stabilizers" below); typically more helpful for severe depression and bipolar disorder than true psychosis (Zyprexa and Risperdal excepted)"Mood stabilizers"- (big misnomer, most effective for  mania/agitation, not depression)-- Depakote/valproic acid, Trileptal/oxcarbazepine, Tegretol/carbamazepineLithium- it's not clozapine, but gets the silver medal as a true mood stabilizer (see My Desert Island Meds in Season 1)Clozapine- the winner of the psychiatric med decathlon in most every event; needs weekly blood monitoring and has a few very serious potential side effectsBenzodiazepines- Xanax/alprazolam; Klonopin/clonazepam, Librium/chlordiazepoxide, Ativan/lorazepam, Valium/diazepamStimulants- Adderall/amphetamine; Vyvanse; Ritalin/Concerta/Focalin/methylphenidateAmphetamines are more euphoria-inducing, thus more abused and addictive and also tend to have more side effects; both amphetamines and methylphenidate are roughly equally effective for ADD/ADHDBFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

How do you show up for others when you are facing the loss of everything you have ever known and loved?Here Leah Barrett, a Colorado-based psychotherapist, opens her heart and shares her story of managing the careful dance of witnessing her clients' pain and trauma while she faces her own unfolding medical nightmare.  Leah and Craig explore this immediacy and the implications for doing the sacred work of psychotherapy. Leah Barrett's podcast --Precarioushttps://www.leahbarrett.com/precarious-podcastBFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

What's the special sauce of psychological and psychiatric treatment? How do we change, particularly in relationship with others?  Here Dr. Hillary McBride, a psychotherapist, researcher, author, and podcast host (Other People's Problems) opens up about the details of her years of psychiatric treatment, what worked (often surprising!), what did not, and how she had to leave home to find a home in herself. Dr. Hillary McBridehttps://hillarylmcbride.comHillary's new book-- The Wisdom of Your Bodyhttps://www.amazon.com/Wisdom-Your-Body-Wholeness-Connection/dp/1587435527/ref=sr_1_2?dchild=1&keywords=hillary+mcbride&qid=1617029987&sr=8-2BFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com

How can we stop the heartbreaking and horrific spiral of addiction? Dr. Jeremy Dubin, the Medical Director of Colorado's Front Range Clinic, sits down with Dr. H to discuss their top five things that actually work....and the five factors which most predict jails, institutions, and death.Dr. H and BFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com

BFTA takes a wild ride with Colorado based artist, writer, and video producer Ian Jaydid as he tells his double abyss story of lucid dreaming, out of body experiences, REM deprivation and transient psychosis....which then led to the blissful but ultimately destructive salve of opioids and a life changing encounter with the African psychedelic Iboga (ibogaine). Ian Jaydidhttps://ianjaydid.comIan's novel Tripping the Fieldhttps://www.amazon.com/Tripping-Field-Existential-Ungodly-Proportions/dp/0991193199Ian's first lucid dreaming experiencehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-WaA3SGl9M&t=26sDr. H/ BFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com/podcast-page/

In the context of an increasingly severe shortage of psychiatrists,  Dr. H discusses some uncomfortable truths about why finding a good outpatient psychiatrist is even more difficult than ever.Psychedelics and Psychiatry-- Dr. H on The Third Wave Podcasthttps://thethirdwave.co/podcast/episode-112-craig-heacock/BFTA and Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com

The therapeutic relationship is built on trust, we come to therapy expecting that we are going to be heard and believed.Jeanine wasn't believed-- about her childhood sexual assaults, or the emerging psychotic symptoms, or her intractable suicidality....even after many near fatal attempts and over 40 inpatient stays.This episode looks at how and why we believe some people and discount others.  It turns out that the way people tell us their stories matters just as much as the actual words they choose. And, unfortunately, certain clinical presentations make patients/clients much less likely to be heard and believed. A heads up-- this episode includes descriptions of childhood sexual abuse, self-harm, and suicide attemptsDopamine, saliency, and the onset of paranoiahttps://www.nature.com/articles/s41398-020-00912-4Borderline personality diagnosis leads to demedicalization and poor treatmenthttps://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4870819/Inappropriate affecthttps://www.betterhelp.com/advice/personality-disorders/inappropriate-affect-symptoms-and-signs/Dr. H/BFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com

Some things in life defy explanation...like tripping on mushrooms and arresting the plunge into alcoholism.Here Stella shares her story of childhood abuse and neglect, her reenactment of the abuse through toxic relationships with men, and then her life-changing sessions with both psilocybin and MDMA. Stella and Dr. H explore how she was able to first bring her dissociated and numbed self back to life with the help of psilocybin and later heal her attachment wounds and trauma with MDMA-assisted psychotherapy. BFTA and Dr. Hhttp://craigheacockmd.com

Dr. H sits down with Dr. David Puder, a psychiatrist and host of the Psychiatry and Psychotherapy podcast, to explore the beauty and challenge and mystery of psychotherapy.  What are Chris and Craig wanting for Christmas...??? How about writing us a review!Dr. Puder and the Psychiatry and Psychotherapy podcasthttps://www.psychiatrypodcast.comDr. H essay on psychedelic healing for CNN.comhttps://www.cnn.com/2020/12/20/opinions/psychedelics-trauma-healing-this-is-life-heacock/index.htmlBFTA and Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com

In most specialties of medicine, the dictum "Diagnosis guides treatment" is the law of the land. In psychiatry, however, most of what we treat are often overlapping syndromes, not actual diseases, and these syndromes involve hugely varying dimensions of symptoms with a vast array of potential causes and exacerbating factors.Maggie came to Dr. H with a challenging clinical presentation:  likely genetic loading for a mood and/or anxiety disorder, childhood emotional neglect, years of school problems, hormone irregularities and progesterone hypersensitivity, all leading to  steadily worsening mood instability, depression, and hopelessness.  Over the course of the last 12 years, Maggie and Dr. H were eventually able to co-create both a successful treatment course and a shame-free narrative, without a clear diagnosis to guide them.Comments, suggestions, questions? We'd love to hear them! Email us via https://www.craigheacockmd.com or message us on Twitter @bftapodIf you haven’t already, please write us a review!

The podcast Psychedelics Today recently released a two part interview with Will Hall, an author, podcaster, therapist, and voice of the anti-psychiatry community. This BFTA episode came about after Dr. H reached out to the hosts of PT and asked for a counterpoint to Will's complete dismissal of psychiatry as a meaningful part of the mental health treatment community. Here Dr. H  presents a more nuanced, balanced, and hopeful perspective, one that recognizes the harm that psychiatrists and other physicians have caused in the past and continue to cause today, while also asking that we try to lean into the positive, to identify and celebrate what works for people, to reject the black/white thinking that calls for tearing down systems which are, by their very nature, messy and imperfect, just as we humans are messy and imperfect. Psychedelics Todayhttps://psychedelicstoday.comDr. H and BFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com

Dr. H sits down with his friend Brian, who watched his daughter, and then his wife, plunge into the depressive abyss.   This is the journey of a father and husband, of a "we can fix this" engineer trying to find a path through the ambiguity and uncertainty of psychiatric treatment.This is the second in an intermittent series of family members describing their journey of trying to support their loved ones through their darkest times.Grief and loss raft trips (mentioned by Brian)https://www.pathfindersforyou.orgDr. H/Back from the Abyss https://www.craigheacockmd.com

In this third of an intermittent series about therapists in the abyss, Dr. H sits down with his colleague  Dr. Elena Estanol, a Colorado-based psychologist, to explore Elena's "fourth dark night of the soul".  Her story serves as a springboard for exploring how to cope with the randomness of life,  learning to go inward to heal relational wounds, differentiating pain vs suffering, and finding peace with who shows up for us and who doesn't. Dr. Elena Estanolhttps://synapsecounseling.comDr. H and BFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com

Dr. H finds a trove of patient letters from the last 15 years and shares three of the most poignant, using each as a springboard for lessons learned.Dr. H and BFTAhttps://www.craigheacockmd.comhttps://twitter.com/bftapod?lang=en

After a difficult final year of high school, Tessa hoped and prayed that her youngest son would make the transition to college and find a way to thrive. He would be only an hour away, he wanted to go, and she was hopeful that getting a new start there could reverse whatever was happening to him. Yet just two months into his freshman year, it was apparent that he was sinking fast into a maelstrom of panic, body dysmorphia, delusions, and hopelessness. This is Tessa's story of trying to find the strength, and eventually, the self-compassion, to both find help for her son as well as work through her own guilt and shame.Book recommendation (from Tessa)The Stressed Years of Their Lives: Helping Your Kid Survive and Thrive During Their College YearsBFTA and Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.com

Trauma embeds in the complex zone between body and spirit, deep within the realm of primary consciousness. The typical psychiatric approaches of meds and talk therapy rarely access these unconscious realms. In prior episodes of BFTA, we have heard accounts of healing these deep wells of trauma with EMDR, psilocybin, and MDMA-- this episode highlights the unexpected power of a loving teacher and a guided spiritual practice.Jeff Finlin, a Colorado-based singer/songwriter and recovery coach, shares his story of recovery after recovery, accessing his embodied trauma and deeper self years into sobriety, through a practice of the breath and self-compassion.Jeff Finlinhttps://www.jefffinlin.comBack from the Abyss and Dr. Hhttps://www.craigheacockmd.comOn Twitter @bftapod

In the first half of this two part mini-episode, Dr. H explores the four stages where fully dissociative doses of ketamine can get a little rocky:  *reaching escape velocity*re-entry*dissociative shatter*post-session processingWhat if a psychiatrist were allowed to ask only one question at a session....what might that be? In the second part of this episode, Dr. H ties together sleep, mood, hormone cycling, friendships, work, circadian rhythm, addiction, and dogs vs cats into just one question.Comments, suggestions, questions? We'd love to hear them! Email us via https://www.craigheacockmd.com or message us on Twitter @bftapodIf you haven’t already, please do write us a review!

Saj Razvi (of Innate Path and Psychedelic Somatic Institute) returns to BFTA to help Craig do a deep dive into listener questions. Have questions you want us to address in a future episode? Email them via craigheacockmd.com or message on Twitter @bftapodPsychedelic Somatic Institutepsychedelicsomatic.orgVideo showing somatic/primary consciousness trauma work catalyzed by THChttps://vimeo.com/442544334