From childhood, Stan Hartmann lived with a nagging feeling that something about him wasn't quite right. He never liked the activities other boys did, and when he grew up, he took on his father's business with great reluctance. He married, had a family, and became a Christian. Later, he remarried, but was never able to enjoy a sexual relationship with a woman. His thirst for God was deep, and even when he quit working to focus only on his spiritual search, and reached the apex of that search - experiencing full realization of the Absolute One - there remained an underlying tension in his human existence. He didn't like living. Then, one day, his partner lovingly called out the elephant in the room of their two-year relationship. She asked why he could not make love to her. The truth exploded out of him: "because I'm not a man!” In that instant, years of lies and pretending revealed themselves, and shed themselves from his body like layers of unshackled bondage. Stan experienced for the first time the truth of his authentic self, the reason he had never felt comfortable in his body or truly joyous in his life. Becoming one with his authentic self, Stan became Annie, and with the veil lifted, embodied life took on new glory, joy, and meaning. Becoming her fully embodied, authentic self, she now understands the experience of life as the Creator intended in knowing itself in this way - the full experience of "God in a bod.” Most important, she says, this is an experience all of us can have - in fact, we are meant to have it. This is why we came here: to understand and come to know, through the power of contrast and with infinitely joyous (re)union, who we really, truly are - our divine selves. It's not about gender, ultimately - it's about the burning truth inside of each of us that we are holding back, pushing down, disallowing - a truth that is perfectly unique to each human being, and their authentic self. Annie's story is truly about the journey of every human life - finding out who we really are, and embodying it, experiencing it... and becoming One with it. On the other side is pure technicolor: the wild joy, light, love and radiance of this creation. Enjoy!The post OS60: Annie Hart – The Explosive Joy of Living as “God in a Bod” appeared first on Ownstream.