What's it like to descend into addiction and then fight to overcome it? As Abstract Machine, Ben Holley produces and performs a fusion of R&B, electronica, and bass music. He also endured years of substance abuse, from heroin to pills and beyond. He details how his addictions developed, cultural misconceptions about drug use, the complexities of recovery, and how the struggle - both internally and externally - led to a shift in mindset and ample lessons learned about life and the human experience. This is a starkly candid and perhaps darkly humorous look into heroin addiction, substance problems, and the many, sometimes overlooked, social and personal factors that contribute to the experience. Other topics include: how drugs influence the creative process, discussing drug addiction with one's parents, how psychedelics aided in healing, issues with traditional therapy for heroin use, and a number of tangents related to how sometimes our lives and identities are guided by forces beyond our own individual choices.