Pure Natural Pregnancy
About This Show
A fortnightly pregnancy, birth & parenting podcast for people interested in the natural approach. Whether you're planning a home water birth, a VBAC or a more gentle caesarean, this is the show for you.
This podcast has been created to inspire women to trust their incredible bodies as they embark upon a new and empowering experience. We interview those who are passionately committed to honouring your right to choose a pregnancy, birth and parenting style that is as unique as you and your family.
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018 Feeling like a failure after my caesarean
[et_pb_section bb_built="1" admin_label="section"][et_pb_row admin_label="row"][et_pb_column type="4_4"][et_pb_text admin_label="Text" background_layout="light" text_orientation="left" use_border_color="off" border_color="#ffffff" border_style="solid"] Feeling like a failure after my caesarean I recorded this episode off-the-cuff sitting in a hotel room early on a Sunday morning. Myself and my beautiful friend MaryAnne (from the You're Doing Great Mom podcast) had planned the weekend away as a bit of TLC. We need that time as busy mums to rest and recharge, so that's what we did. After a couple of large glasses of Rioja, we got talking about my first birth with George. It was a planned home birth that turned into an emergency caesarean at 33 weeks. MaryAnne knew bits and bobs about my birth, but she didn't know the full depth of it. She had no idea that I felt like a failure after my caesarean. I told my family that I felt like a failure, that my body let me down, and most of all that I didn't deserve to have children. My feelings were invalidated and dismissed, because I had a "healthy baby". That's not how it should be. Clearly this had been on my mind all night, because I woke up with the urge to record a heartfelt episode to go in depth into the birth trauma and associated feelings that led to me having PTSD. Challenging core beliefs "As a chiropractor, one of my greatest fundamental beliefs is that the body is just perfectly designed, and here I was with a body that wasn't perfectly designed… that had failed me… that had made it so that I couldn’t have a baby naturally. It really challenged every single belief that I have" I really struggled with coming to terms with what happened, and how I felt about it. Not just the birth, but the initial feelings toward my beautiful baby. As pregnant mums, I think we all sit and visualise how our lives will be, and what kind of parents we'll be too. Nobody sits and thinks to themselves, "I think I'll get separated from my baby and not even coo over a photo of him". But that's the reality for many of us. It wasn't this overwhelming surge of love and affection that I thought it'd be. I was scared. Petrified in fact. It wasn't how birth was meant to be. It wasn't how my birth was meant to be. Working through the feelings Once I finally accepted that I needed help, I went for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) through Essex mental health servi